Part 2

part 1 can be found at this link:  Part one click here

Sharon moved away with her family.My parents also moved
us across the county from Belleview to the North side
of Ocala near 326. I was about 15 and in 10th grade
in 1985. The move was a good thing for me and I got
on track again in life for no reason at all just
figured I tried the being bad will go back to being
a nerd again and concentrate on school,
then got a job and worked. I have always
loved to work, and even held odd jobs at
a young age. 

A few years passed and it was 1987, I was 17
going into Senior year, we still lived by 326
east area North side of Ocala. I had a job at
the Winn Dixie where the Midnight Rodeo bar
area is now. I was at this job for all of two
weeks. I really hated being a cashier. It was
just so boring, I had to go back to restaurant
work again and do several things at one time.
I was going in to get my last pay check, and
recall giving a man money to get food. 
His name was Paul said he used to be a
professor and talked about universal language
so that the world could have peace.am sure some
of you all recall him in this area. 
Skinny white haired man long beard mustache
walked hunched over kinda. 

I looked up and saw Sharon's husband standing there Jim,
In a security uniform like he was a guard. I was happy to
see him thinking I could find Sharon again now and visit
with her.  He said she worked at the end of the strip mall
Winn Dixie was located toward the north side of it was
like a lingerie type shop. So we go in to see her.  She
invites me to dinner and we exchange numbers.  How odd
Jim said he was a security guard for that place but I
never saw them before there.  Ocala was not to bad back
then with crime to need that.  How odd also that she
worked right there by me and I never knew it. Odder yet
was getting directions from them they only lived a mile
from 326 if even that far.  They lived road that cuts
back by Ford dealership on 441. Was a Mobile home park.
It is not there anymore. A town away and so close again.

I go to dinner. Tell Sharon and Jim how well I am doing
now and they were very happy to hear that.  Then Sharon
told me about some of my dreams then taught me some
about crystals and how they could heal and that
she was going to meet a Native American I guess
like a chief or something like that.  She was very excited
about it all. We had a nice visit and I learned so much
always in short periods with her.  I was like a sponge.
She invited me back again.  A few weeks went by and
I went by their new place to say hello and it looked
vacant.  It was vacant the park manager said no one
lived there.  I said what happened to Sharon and Jim?
He said who?  I described them and he looked puzzled
still. Now I was feeling a bit crazy here.  I left.

I then went to shop she worked at and went in to see
about her there and they also said they did not know
a Sharon. I described her even asked for the manager
to verify she knew whom I was talking about.  She
did not.  I must be going nuts? I had to leave and
drop it before the looney bin came to pick me up.

I never knew what to think about what had happened
I knew the second time they came into my life I was
doing really great so was not like they guardians.
The first time for sure they could have been. 
Was she for real?  Was any of her family I met real?
Her story of:

When she was younger she played with a little
girl up the road.  For a long while she played
with her I guess many months not sure she gave
a time period.  One day when going she knocked
on the door.  Apparently she had not met her parents
before because when she asked for the little
girl the parents shocked said she had been dead
for about 3 years now.She had been playing
with a spirit and had not known she was not real.

Really gives me the thought of where they ghosts/spirits?
I know she guided me but yet it was her husband who
was the one who walked up to show me where she was.
I have asked many their thoughts on this and I get
very blank expressions not knowing if I am for real
in my story or that they my guardian angels. 
In my life as well it is interesting that I did not
search out Native Americans or crystals they found me
or I ran into them. She really taught me a lot and
was more than a typical ghost haunting for sure.
Was I eating ghost food or how did I get inside
the houses she lived in?  Why did not one person question
whom I was talking to outside the Winn Dixie. Paul
I believe is real have seen him off and on through
the years.  I have always questioned these encounters
and it has taken many years to understand it and
for it to make sense and her stories to me and how
really perhaps she was not there in human form either
like the little girl she said she played with.
I keep hoping to see them again some day but perhaps
my memory in this story keeps her spirit alive
enough for me for 23 years later I am just
gutsy enough to share this story.

I did house calls off and on in my career as
a Massage Therapist and would bring crystals
to lay under the massage table to use as generators.
I noticed over time animals lying under the massage table
near the crystals. One such animal was a cat named Lovey.

She had stomach issues and was a thin cat.  I decided to
test her with the crystals so when I had an appointment I
would pick a few crystals out I was drawn to just for Lovey.
I put them away from the massage table to the side to see if she
would lay by them .  My client on the table, crystals to the side,
Lovey comes in and lays right next to the crystals that I had
chosen for her put to the side.  Although I suspected it was
the crystals that did draw her to help her feel good, I also
thought maybe she just wanted to lay near her Mommy my
client under the table.  Each appointment I continued to do
the same until the day she passed.  I was very appreciative
that Lovey taught me how crystals heal animals too.  

Not much time went by and my client says she still see's Lovey
around and hoped she did cross over.  I told her I would
come over with the smudge bowl, feather and sage and
do a little cleanse for Lovey.  I picked out a few crystals for
Loveys grave they buried her out back.  I took out the sage,
clam shell and turkey feather and saged the area and by her
grave I placed the crystals on her grave.  As I was saging the
other animals came and sat in a line by me facing Loveys grave.

They knew what I was doing.  I would have never believed it if
I had not witnessed it.  I had  told Lovey to pass to the light
and the animals sat there so quiet the cats and the dogs and
my client.  Lovey the cat taught me a lot in her life and death.

The year 2009 I could say if was a title be called
"2009, B rated movie that never ends" but also "Living my dream"
Am not sure where to begin this story. Hmm, maybe October
2008.  That was when GH Taps came to the Seven Sisters Inn.
well it was before that it aired October 1, 2008.  That was the
beginning. 

I had worked at the Seven Sisters Inn doing Massage
therapy as the guests would request, for 11 years. 
I have also lived and worked in the historic district area
for about 13 years lived 2 houses down from the 7 Sisters
in a very haunted house and been in many other houses in
that area that were haunted.  Back in 1995 when first really
going in the Tuscawilla historic district then about 1997 in
the fort king street historic district people were not really
open to the ghost subject.  not like they are today.
So, my experiences I did tell some but it was pretty limited
in fear on how it would be received.  This was nothing new to
me as others when I was younger told me I was seeing
things, evil or just plain weird, going to hell.  you name it
I have heard it all.

Well I was at a metaphysical fair on November 2nd 2008.
Met a group that did ghost walks just started previous week
in that same area.  I told them about my history in that area
and that I also worked at 7 Sisters Inn doing massage and
readings.  They wanted me on their tour that night, and on
that night realizing how much I have experienced in the area
and the fact I been at the 7 Sisters for 11 years was a big plus.
We ended up being able to do ghost tours through houses
as part of our tours.  2 houses how wonderful.  I was the
one who did the tours because I k new the houses very well
after 11 years.  Plus it was amazing even to me that
I could get readings on the emf and rf detectors in both houses
without fail the spirits would come and show people they
existed and never once made me a liar.  They sure did make
me sweat it though several times but they always came in the end.

This is where it gets weird.  the paranormal group I was working
with the main guy has a lying problem not only that he likes to
create drama for people.  especially if they had been on his
team before.  wow we had sometimes 2-4 people a week
attacking our team and leaving nasty messages.  little did we
know the main guy was stirring all this trouble up.  and some of it
was not harmless at all.  then you have other groups trying to get you.
one man from a shop would get fake investigation and have me go
to make me out a fake except guess what why did my equipment light
up.  some type of spirit there.   it was supposed to be a house that
had no ghost but guess what it did. scientifically it was proved.

a way to test a psychic is not lie. just have them go somewhere and
do reading.  because of what we have to go through to have
this gift we do not on the whole operate well under those conditions
of being tested with lies.   I do not want to decipher the liars
from the honest ones.  I have a fault that overides my senses
called I want to trust what people are telling me.  I have learned
in the paranormal world to go with my gut. 

We were so fortunate to meet people in the paranormal world.
Kristyn Gartland, Angela Alderman, Chip Coffey, Patrick Burns,
Rob Demarrest,  and Darkness Dave.  They came for events
at the 7 Sisters Inn and we were invited for free to come.
Then I was embarrassed by their immaturity and people
would say omg why are you on their team they so immature
or they could care less about investigating. and the main guy
he would rather just talk about penis.   not even kidding
on tour he would also do that.  list goes on and on and on
how much I had to deal with. 

Ok, so the paranormal team and I decide let's be dorks and
do a show.  we paid people to film it for us,  I paid more than half
not repaid much of it of course.  Then a whole lot of drama started
oh ya fun fun fun.  First the shop guy filmed us they brought
a circus or 3 of them so many people.  then another psychic that
also works with shop guy.  I really admired her work and
we both have done house readings and such and have gotten
same information so she and I either are real deal or both
full of it and same info.  We go in separately.  come out same stuff.
Awesome much respect to her and her work.  Not awesome for me.

So we did not use shop guy and his film crew because it just
was horrible and we used these other producers.  fine we had to
pay them.  so that took forever and we finally filmed in February
still owing them some.  main paranomal guy on team was working
with still lying to so many.  he told psychic with shop guy she could
be on team and show. well then we changed film people and he
never put her on show.  she knew the new producer and was mad
she was not on the show.  then that is when i became the bad
person.  

Within weeks of that show being filmed 2nd time new location,
these ridiculous things happened.  I wish I could make such
things up LMAO.  some are funny now. 

so the psychic that also worked with shop guy and so did I, said
I was sending her black magic and she was all bruised.  she even
went  to show people in the metaphysical world her bruises everywhere
she went.  Now at this time I was doing a lot of protection
just due to nature of work and felt some cruddy stufff coming.
I never send out bad or do black magic at all.  so basically
if her story was true and she is bruised it is because she was
sending something bad to me.  I honestly could not believe
she was going around and doing that and showing people
bruises.  Honestly, where did she get them.  I now think she is
nuts and maybe even pinched herself just to get the part in
the stupid show.  I tell you it made me MADDDD.  I wanted to
bruise her then.  Jeesh where do people get this stuff from really?

next thing that happened was some dope of a guy for the main
guy of paranormal team I worked with went into shop guys
shop and yelled at him for money he thought he was due.
this had nothing what so ever to do with me.  i was kicked out
of the shop because of the paranormal team i worked with.
really shop guy was mad because we did not use him for
filming I was the easy ass to kick.  i lost clients for readings
as I was not there or at metaphysical gatherings anymore.
Never do work like that unless you get the clients names.
It is worth it if something like this happens to you.

Do you think I am done, Hell No.  Not even.  5 score
and milleniums later we paid off producer people
as they threatened to not edit the show, so I paid them off.
then April came and they forclosed the Seven Sisters Inn.
there was a petition but it was never sent or mailed to
the banker.  that really made me upset.  why all the work
to not even send in petition.  Then the last night to help
the owners of 7 sisters pack their personal things
and such.  paranormal team I worked with was supposed
to help.  one showed for few minutes left and no one ever came.
It was the 2 owners and another man and myself that stayed
until 3 a.m.   I was tired of the lying, manipulation and also
the lack of professionalism and if you say you are gonna do
something do it.  So, by this point a woman on the team and I
safeguarded the team by putting occupational license in our
name and also made ourselves members of chamber of commerce
here in Ocala.  It was my money though and once again I was never
paid back. 

Not only that she backstabbed me saying I forced her into
doing all that stuff when main guy mad.  I told him he needed
some major help for all the lying and problems he caused people
and it was not minor stuff as I said.  He even said one guy killed
babies for ritual really serious stuff that just simply was not true.
So I think it was maybe 2 days after the 7 Sisters forclosure
and they told me to sign contract with them and I refused saying
until they got their act together I would not sign one thing..  
I have already told them I would not sign a contract so they kicked
me out.  Now  I was with them from November-April
and now that the 7 Sisters was closed and was no tour to do
through there bye bye.   It does not end there.  I went through
months of slander, them antagonizing me in public, going by
beeping cursing at me even causing someone on my tour to
almost have panic attack.  why did they do this because the main
guy told them I knew a lot of people in town and paranomal
world we better ruin her because he knew what a piece of crap
he was.  I also would not quit doing the ghost walks.  it was my
thought to keep doing them year round my vision.  I saw it so strong.

I was still licensed and had a year membership to chamber of
commerce and then when they called the police on me
that was it.  I did nothing it was all in effort to ruin me.  never once
did anything go through in fact the cops told me it was apparent
the main guy was harrassing me. 

upon finding out I was no longer with paranormal team the shop guy
wanted me back.  I started to get people again when they saw I was
there because I was accurate it ended up coming true.  in the end
shop guy once again from others talking smack and his own
mind decided I was to negative to bring to new shop, so once
again I was not there, which really is not good for business. 
I will never go back he will not have another chance to ask me to
leave or say one more negative thing about me. not to mention
saying I talked about him but really he was the one
who said things about me that would get back to me. it gets old

might I add that shop guy and main paranormal guys had one thing in common
they loved to cut down my gifts testing me telling me how others
said I was a fake.  other psychics jumped in on this wagon as well
it just was ridiculous.  I have people around the country
that can vouch for me, and time and time again it made me
stand up for myself and believe and know that their untruths of me
does not represent me.  in the end they will just look back.  both of
them all of them have done me harm.  paranormal group and their main
guy, shop guy his psychic and other psychics and all else who decided
to jump on in.  I am hardly a victim because you know what I did
everytime these people pissed me off I would work on my Ghost walks
my website or hand out flyers and talk to people go around get
history.  I kept going.  It proved to be successful to me in this way
around Halloween time that group had 1/4 of what I had on their ghost walk.

it was not because I bad mouthed them it was because I put a lot
more positive energy into mine.  This is not to say I did not tell some
the story,  but everyone thought I was nuts.  he even had the news people
fooled and they would not list me like they did them.  I am not naming
names of any sort for professional and obvious reasons.

I will tell you this,  I floated for months when this first started which
made me ignore the lies at first and what I was getting psychically.
my friends said i predicted it and then it happened with much of it.
sometimes the bad things bring good to you.  I have had this lesson
before for sure.  What a heck of a year but I am glad this B rated movie
is over.  I will not even tolerate this nonsense anymore, after being
attacked for months like I was the leash is short.  I kept thinking if I
ignored them it would stop and it just did not.  Amazing how people
have been in this paranormal world and shows and such.  If you
try to do well people are quick to beat you out of it cut you down
ruin you.  they contacted even my friends told them lies saying
I hated them could not stand them I was a fake and all I cared about
was money.  blah blah blah

I am pretty sure I am meant to be doing this ghost walk and everything
else I was doing.  I have survived a lot in life just coming back this past
year from a serious illness that took life as I knew it.  I am truly meant to be
here doing something.  It seems all the experiences paranormally I had
in the past in the historic district prepared me for this very time.  The time
to talk is now.  I kept going even with groups after me to try and ruin.  I am still
here and I am a tough bitch. 


http://www.ocalaghostwalks.com/

First, let me start this by saying I wish
my imagination could make this up the story
I am about to tell you. I am pretty creative
but I would never really think to write about
this subject. Not ever. I know I have posted
that a client of mine heard a ghost peeing.
It was really funny, and true as she said
her and her husband both heard it. Now,
most of me always tries to believe someone,
and a small part of me doubts. I am sure
this is natural even though some of us in
the paranormal world or that see and sense
them experience things that are unbelievable.
This is about at the top of that list of not
being believable.

I gave a massage today at a clients house.
As I walked in her house smelled just fine.
I have a sensitive nose and I would smell
something off right away. Her house
did not have a smell that I can recall bad
or good just a house smell. She turned over
on her back half way through the massage,
and as I was massaging her feet I started
to smell pee real strong human or dog,
I stated this as it just shocked me was
by my left leg her right foot area I smelt
it. The smell went away. Then we talked
about the smell a few minutes later,
wondering what it could be. The smell
came back again. This time I was doing
her right arm. She smelled it as well.

I then saw a man that was scruffy looking
that had salt and pepper hair beard, shorts
and like a tropical shirt. She said it was not
another spirit that we knew was there,
that was not what he looked like. Then she
said something about this man that
pitched a tent when they first bought the
property and he did not want to leave
and her hubby had to kick him off.

That was it and we smelled it again.
It was annoying at this point, kept doing it.
We could not help but talk about it again
and each time we did smell would come back.

I had some white sage in my car and brought it
in after the massage was over. She lit it
walked around kitchen and living room area
and as she stood in living room a breeze
started to come by us and blow, it blew the
sage out. We both noticed it. There was
no A/C running or heat or fans, no windows open.
nothing to create a breeze we were standing
still.

I left came home, actually forgot about the whole
thing and tonight she IM me and here is our
conversation. I will put client for her name.

CLIENT:::Catherine the name of the guy I was trying to think of today was Floyd. Told hubby about the pee thing and he told me what this man looked like...described him as scruffy beard, salt n pepper in color, weird hat, always wore it and last time he saw him he was in a plaid jacket. This is the one I think was in the house today and peed in the living room

said his beard was long

Ocala:::

ya

scruffy

my description fits his except jacket

he must have passed

is it better now no more pee?

CLIENT:::
Hubby owned the property but the guy had set up a tent and was living here hubby had to run him off
none that I can smell,know the draft was unreal when he left

Ocala:::

maybe he died recently who knows

yes that was interesting

it really was

CLIENT:::

I don't know but is weird cause hubby said he was thinking about him yesterday for no reason

just popped in his mind


Ocala

ya weird. tell him to set up camp next door

CLIENT:::

so think thats our spirit, know the sage made him leave..yeah stop peeing in my house

just wanted you to know that

Ocala

that is pretty cool must be him

he not being very nice for sure

kept peeing by us as we talked about it

CLIENT:::

I'll let you know if anymore happens...I'll deal with him
yeah hubby thinks it was him, said he was real nasty person

was squating on his property and hubby had to threaten to call the cops on him if he didn't leave

said it took about a month to get him totally off the property

Ocala

i wish we could make this stuff up lol

CLIENT:::
LOL

Ocala

amazing

we being peed by

CLIENT:::

LOL

Ocala:::

then we talk abut it happen again

lmao

Client:::

hat, beard down to color, and the plaid jacket close enough for a tropical shirt, color

Ocala:::

ya

or maybe that kind of shirt under jacket

who knows

CLIENT:::

right

well it happened

Ocala:::

ya lol

CLIENT:::

the rush of wind did it

Ocala:::

yes that was neat

really funny now

lol

CLIENT:::

bye bye spirit..told hubby you said that..LOL

Ocala

is a first to me

ya
CLIENT:::

Thanks for the sage...love it good smell

Ocala

yes is the good white sage

welcome



Ok back to the story. that really is the end
See I cannot even go do a massage without
something happening. Will have to write about
a client who left me because of a spirit another
time. Anyone ever had any of this happen? LOL



http://www.ocalaghostwalks.com/

March 22, 2007

There are many things that goes along with having an animal as a totem.  this means you are in tune with the wolf for another animal. This means that often, the person who has a wolf totem shares characteristics and social habits with the wolf. This is exactly how it is for me.

There are two types of wolf behaviors, and with this, comes two types of totem. That of the pack wolf, and that of the loner. There is a large difference between the two.

The pack wolves live in a communal structure with a very strict heirarchy. There is a dominant pair, called the Alpha pair that leads the pack. These are the only wolves that breed within the pack. The others would not even think of it, but instead help with the raising of the pups produced by the alpha pairing. On the bottom of the hierarcyis the Omega wolf. This wolf is often bullied and is the one that must go without food when it is scarce. The Omega wolf is usually a loner that has just joined the pack.

Though the alpha male is the leader of the pack, that does not mean that it is a complete autocratic system. The alpha male often seeks wisdom from those in its pack, but this does not mean it is a democracy either. It is a delicate balance of the two.Having a wolf totem, this means that you must establish this harmony in your life to achieve the spiritual and true freedom. (I am very independent person and do not like to be told what to do, but am always open to suggestions)

Wolves of the pack are strong in the sense of community and are extremely loyal to those within the pack. Even moreso are the alpha pairing, as their loyalty, sense of community, and strength are what keeps the wolf pack alive. The wolf totem gives this to the human. They are loyal and their friendships are strong and they can survive the battles of time. (very loyal)

Communication is an important topic with wolves. Their language has a variety of sounds such as yips, yelps, whines, howls, growls, and barks. It is also one of posture, facial expression, and tail positions. Their howl is one of the most important. It carries overlarge distances and can be used to help locate pack members, establish the boundaries of its territory, as well as strengthen group unity.This sound often gives the haunting, chilling feeling to those humans listening. Those with the wolf totem find this soothing, and may even have the urge to howl back.(I love to hear a pack of wolves howl so much is better then flying in an aerobatic plane.  woo hooo, I feel it so deep inside me) Howling back, however, can be dangerous as the wolves will adapt to sound like the humans, and forget their own howls.Those with wolf totems are usually very expressive. This involves using your hands and posture to make yourself clearly understood. (I cannot go to auctions because if I talk then I raise the price lol because I use my hands) Though it takes time, this skill can be sharpened and this use of gestures can be more effective than those without the wolf totem. (communication is very important to me)

Wolves do not like to fight unless it is totally necessary. Often, the wolves will go out of their way to avoid fighting. Disagreements rarely end in fighting. Many times a look or low growl in warning is all that is needed to avoid conflict. In this way, those with wolf totem are also prone to avoid these confrontations, preferring peace to war.These people also do not feel the need to show their strength orabilities to those around them. Their confidence is enough. (I do not like to fight)

When it comes to hunting, the pack wolves have a complex hunting system, though it seems very simple. The pack members simply take turns chasing down their prey, so that their prey becomes weak and tired long before the wolves. This is very important as wolves do not have a long endurance when traveling at its higher speeds of 24-28 miles/hour.Even though the wolves are great predators, they do limit their prey to the sick, young, or ill. After catching their prey, they eat all parts of their prey, not leaving anything behind except the bones. Those that have the wolf totems also do not like waste. If they take something,they will use as much of it as they possibly can. If they are unsure of the use of something, they most likely will try to find out. (I do not like to waste at all and sometimes eat too much like a wolf; I have fed them quarter chicken is like one chomp to break bone then swallow, we need to learn how to chew more, lol)

Wolves have very strong senses of smell and hearing. This sense of smell helps the wolf greatly with hunting, or territorial duties. The wolf also has a thick coat which helps protect the wolf from both weather as well as its predators. This does not mean that those with the wolf totem has a strong sense of smell and hearing and are hairy.(have strong sense of smell and hearing and am hairy lol) It is a more metaphorical ability to listen to intuition and inner thoughts. Often,these intuitions are valid and correct. The fur of the wolf, or hair on the human, is associated with psychic abilities. This goes with the sense of intuition. By listening to ones inner thoughts and feelings,those of the wolf totem can sharpen their ability to listen to their spirit and be able to deal with the struggles that may come their way.

The loner wolf is one that lives outside of a pack. They do not have any territory, nor do they have other wolves to help them hunt. They must forage for what they can find, which usually includes small animals, or the carcasses left by other hunting animals. If found in the territory belonging to a pack of wolves, this wolf would usually be fought and often is killed as a result. Other times, if it manages to survive the fights, they will join the pack as the Omega wolf.

A wolf can be a loner for a couple different reasons. It could be born to another lone wolf or it could be chased off by their pack. This is usually done if they disobey the commands of the Alpha pairing, or they have some kind of deformity. Whether it is something as obvious as twisted legs that make it unable to keep up with the pack, or a difference of colouring. This wolf must learn to survive on its own.

What animal do you relate to in life???  For me it is the wolf.  Although am not native american these things have come to me in life.  If anyone believes in spirit guides then mine would have to be a white wolf.  He is large, very long hair and tall.Much bigger then real live ones I have saw.   green eyes.  but I still do not know his name,  is a male.   in time it will come.  I was first aware of him in 1997 when I saw his form in my living room.  http://www.myspace.com/lymediseaseawareness)    He has come to me in my dreams and I have seen him like he was real. 

Because of him I have chased other white wolfsand ended up helping them hence the pictures on my profile.  the babies come from the dad Noah.  Noah belonged to client of mind with 7others.   Long story short,(whole story at this site   written sometime last year but do not recall exactly when and just put on this site in february so could save it somewhere.  http://www.helium.com/tm/158610/fairies-watch-animals-protect        I had very bad feeling called all over united states to get them help and finally called fish and wildlife.   they did take the babies left the adults there.  sigh, was a dead one found when someone went first time with hardly any hair left.  meaning was there for a while in with live wolves.  I cried all day about this.  then I called Shy wolf Sanctuary(http://www.shywolfsanctuary.com/) and they helped a lot.  they now have the babies that are not babies anymore, just in the pics I have.   I have met other neat people because of name white wolf and is where i got my tick at lol but i still love him my white wolf with no name.  

 Well my friend Betty has friend named white wolf and he did ceremonies at her property.  (I love Betty dearly she has done a lot to help the earth.  Battled long and hard one time for 10 years to stop waterway from being broke apart to electrichydroplant.  or something to that affect.   anyhow even though she loves the earth so much and fights for it  she will not listen to me about lyme disease   ( http://www.myspace.com/lymediseasesupport                                         and be tested and still has ceremonies there and 3 of us has come down with lyme.  is what I heard.  She does now tell them to use spray and look for ticks.  Which is better then nothing I suppose.   Her comment to this was I have had ticks on me all the time and I am fine.   Yet in December she was found driving wrong side of street they said was stroke.  Could be she is 87 however,  before this she had tummy problems and bladder acting up again and it was fine.   who knows, will keep trying to educate her and others.)  sorry sidetracked back to wolves........................

I for a while did not see my white wolf and it really bothered me.  a woman who thought she was a shaman told me he was gone from me.  I felt like part of me was gone and I mourned him. then one day I meditated and I saw him decayed into the ground almost but not yet dead in my minds eye.  I sat with this for awhile.................then decided that even though I perceived the wolf as male the white wolf was part of me and I felt like that image from this lyme disease.  almost dead but still a little alive.  when discovering this it made me so happy that I did not loose my white wolf because it is part of me.  

Betty also asked that I would have help to get better as she is very caring .   So an intuitive she knew told her that the wolves that passed there were 3 in total at clients house, were with me and other ones to help me heal.   Well little did she know I was craving red meat so much steaks in particular (sorry vegetarians) that I one day was so hungry for it and drove past a cow field and looked hard at them cows lol.  I drove to get some steak to eat right away before chasing cows.  Well I laughed told Betty if she hears of me chasing cows and getting locked up she better call them wolf spirits off lol.   I am sure I was anemic at this point. 

 so please share with me what animal do you feel strongly bonded to and why?????????? 

Spirit for today; Why I would rather be thrown to the wolves In 1997 I was in my living room and I looked over by enertainment center and saw the spirit of a large beautiful white wolf with very long hair and larger then any wolf I have seen alive. I felt the wolf was not from this time. I started to dream about him, for some reason the energy is male to me. In my dreams he has even protected me. I have always loved dogs if you have read my previous posts but never thought about wolves much before this honestly.  Ten years ago too I tried to doubt the spirits that I saw except the white wolf did not go away.   Several years passed and I started doing massage for a woman who raised mccaws they are beautiful birds. she could not afford massage so she paid me in feathers.  Yes I said she paid me in feathers.  I meditated and saw in my minds eye a red swirl thing made out of wood with red feathers hanging from it, so when she suggested that I said sure.  I have never found a complete red feather lol.  they sure are beautiful though. I had a large bag full of feathers black bag. I brought it with me to show my friend one day it was in the back of my car.  We were arrow head hunting and I forgot to show them to her.  We were not finding arrow heads or even any flakes so we drove on and saw a pow wow, the sign actually said biker pow wow.  we were not sure what this was so I said lets go.  Well, we went it was native americans and some bikers.  we walked around and I saw some feathers in the vendors tents for decoration on some things.  I said to a woman I have a huge bag of mccaw feathers she said take them to Mabel.  I found Mabel and she wanted them all.  I traded feathers for crystals and sage.   I got to know Mabel and she told me of a woman not far from me that had wolves since I loved them everytime I saw one at pow wow it reminded me of my spirit white wolf. (Noah)   I went to meet this woman and she had 7 wolves at the time.  hearing them howl really hit me so deep inside and made me so happy.  going inside meeting them first thing right away comes a male white wolf with green eyes named Noah. I was in love.  he did not have the long hair but wow he was beautiful. over time things got worse and because this story is long already it will have to be another blog of what happened to the wolves. They were mistreated and not fed right. she left a dead one in with the live ones that barely had hair so it was there for a while.  How someone could do that to animals is beyond me. How would you like to have to watch a family member decompose?? watching hair go away the skin the organs. this is what these wolves had to endure and are still living there. babies were saved though.  so because of my whitewolf spirit I have been on a journey and not a real fun one either. Wolves are the hardest animal I have ever tried to help.  I cannot even say how many calls I made and how many states I called.  wolves are made out to be these horrible creatures and they are so shy in nature. I am naturally shy myself and if you met a wild wolf they would try to leave more than anything.  The saying "might as well throw them to the wolves" rings in my mind.  Wolves are very family oriented, and have a lot more values then so many humans do. I would rather be thrown to the wolves then be thrown to the people if the truth be known.

December 17, 2007 - Monday  Spirit for today::: house in forest (not short) Category: Dreams and the Supernatural I have written some about a house I went to here in the forest. the whole property has spirits. before I went there I was warned that everyone who had gone there before me who was intuitive or even a priest had gotten sick or something happened to even prevent them from going. I really felt like I was supposed to go so I set up a time and went early evening. 6ish I believe. my biggest concern was the spirits trying to drain me or attack me like the others and having a lyme relapse. yet I still went. I took sage and prayed the whole way there. I could not find the street I kept going by it. It really was not that hard to find. I found the house finally after going by it several times. It was one of the first on the I had turned on. I met the couple, they are young very nice. the man his Mother is intuitive. something bad happened and think she was attacked by dark side and ended up in mental hospital. he is also native american and felt he had strong ties to that even if he did not realize it, but he did. he himself had a lot of power inside of him. I felt the spirits wanted him. I walked around in the house felt a lot of activity and negativity by tv wall leading into their bedroom. it was very active in there but was in whole place really. The wife has a cross under her pillow. she was very scared by this all. there was a lot of poltergeist activity. I sat on the couch in the living room, and sensed a little girl she was by herself not part of the big blob. she had flowers on her dress and felt she hung out with the wife a lot. the little girl was scared too. I told the wife this and she has seen her before. a little girls name was carved out back on house with flowers by her name. she died of an illness or something. I then went to the buildings in the back of the house, and went in guest house. this is one of the most evil places I have felt ever. This is the place that sent the priest running out of their place. the guest house. at first all was ok. the husband did not want to leave me alone in there but for some reason I wanted to be left. at first they would not let me. upstairs I felt like little kids were hurt or at least one little girl. it did not seem the same as the one I had saw in living room. as I held my hands over the wall by the bed I started feeling queezy in my stomach. I feel a lot in my body and hands and tend to use them to run over things to feel what is going on. I then started to feel tired. As soon as this started I pulled my hands away. am sure said more prayers. when I am in deep the prayer that comes out of me is the "Our Father" prayer. not sure why and do not care it seems to work and I just say it over and over and over if am in such situations. I would not allow it to drain me. They showed me pictures of it draining others and I could see it. Very disturbing. It was like they wanted to see if it would drain them. They had so many people out there already before me. all of them drained paranormal investigators, psychics, priest, you name it. I went downstairs in the guest house, and they finally let me be alone. This probably was not wise but luckily nothing major happened. I sat there and again but stronger this time upset stomach, headache coming on and tiredness. I got up and went out. I was not there to let it drain me at all. Throughout walking around outside and inside I felt someone had practiced black occult there and had put things there without realizing what they were doing. Again this was confirmed they had found out 2 women confessed witches were the previous owners. not all witches practice black occult but these two did. this was another confirmation for me of information I was getting was correct. I also felt they did voo doo dolls and other things left on property again confirmed. they had found it but just buried it. I told them they needed to find it and burn it. Nothing happened to me while walking around other then few times in guest house. there were so many spirits there and so many popping out at me it was crazy. I saw spirits of hitchhiking women who I felt were killed I do forget information I said about that though about dates and such. He said there were killings out there upon his research missing women some could have been hitchhikers. what I did not get is why were all of these spirits at this one house?? they did not all die there for sure. this is what I figured out::: the little girl did die there or while she lived in the house, the one with flower dress. the big blob of yuck scared her too. the people who did black occult practices opened a bad place there kind of like a vortex, so this drew spirits from around. the husband who has gifts was a nice source of light for them. I have seen spirits my whole life and I have been born with these gifts, and so was he. he hid from them because his Mom had troubles before for being intuitive. anyhow the spirits love me and they also love him. these however for most part are not positive spirits. even demonic in feeling. because they keep having so many out there it has made this thing grow and drawn even more spirits. it come to find was more of a novelty. I tried to explain how serious of a thing it was for him to not keep having shamans and all these people who say they know what they are doing and do not. he knew people were being drained, but did not realize it was feeding this thing. I even got a Father from Episcopal church who is not afraid of such things but knows how to get rid of them to go with me, but the husband has not called the Father. the wife really wanted it gone he did not. Part 2 I went back this time bringing a friend of a friends.  I wanted someone there with me that was not afraid.  Well I think she was intrigued but really did not realize what was out there.  I warned her and said that biggest thing is do not be afraid.  Also prayers of protection and I brought sage and crystals. I wanted her there with me because it is better to not go alone to these type of things really.   If I had to do it over again I would have went alone, as it was a distraction to me on getting information and such and paying attention to what was going on around the house instead of her. When we first pulled up to the house she did not want to get out of the car. I did not want her to stay alone either, seeing pictures of people being drained by whatever that was out there convinced me of that. So she got out of the car.  I brought out my sage bowl and sage lit it and started walking around the house with her and the lit sage.  I saged us both before we started as well.  We did not walk half way around the yard and she started stumbling like. Weaving back and forth it was pretty scary as this had never happened to me before.  I told her to keep praying.  She did but it kept happening.   The owners were not home yet so I was doing the outside first and see if pick up anything.   As I walked by the lake I had images of dark practices happening there and that something from that was buried in the yard around that area. Or something put into a fire that did not burn all the way. I then went back up towards the house other side of the yard all the time she swayed off and on, I had to keep attending to her. She said that if she was in the sage smoke she was ok, but without sage smoke going directly on her it made her wobbly. I did manage to walk up past 3 buildings.  2 were like sheds and one is that guest house that likes to drain people.  in front of the second building I had seen a black woman slave like bent down on ground and a white man was whipping her brutally.  He was gonna kill her and she made a run for it around the side past the 3 buildings in the backside up to the house. This scene played over and over and over. She would run up the side of the house by their bedroom window. They told me a dark figure runs past their bedroom window frantically and bangs on it.  That really made sense since she was running for her life. I wondered if this had really happened and if so was it there on that property or did they drift there like many other wayward spirits.  It also may have been such a strong energy if it happened there that it just left an implant of that, however I am not sure if implant energy would knock on a window or show a dark shadow running.   Always still learning. That is about all I could manage to get done that trip because the person I brought with me kept stumbling and kept having to watch her.   She also said at times felt like she was being pushed and it looked like it too.  I thought after this would never bring someone out like that again unless they had done this type of thing before. The owners of the house were having people come few days after me and just kept feeding this thing So I decided that unless they really wanted it gone then I would not go back. I really also felt that the spirits wanted the man although that may sound strange as this whole story. The spirits tortured his wife made her so afraid and in begining of talking with him he seemed like he was interested in getting rid of what was ever in his house and around it. I had felt it was straining their marriage.   He has allowed it to drain him as well as I had seen pictures he showed me. Upon thinking of it all I think that whatever is out there will drain anyone that will let it, never seen anything like it really.    It really is nothing to play with as there are very dark things out there that are not controllable once they are released.

2/22/08

How I came to get this shiva lingham is not a short story

of course.   I ordered the wrong book for crystals

and opened the book and it opened to the page and picture

of shiva lingham.  Right away I was attracted to this gemstone.

It is not very beautiful or even colorful but the healing

properties in it are amazing. 

 

Off I went to crystal shop I knew of 2 hours away

by a friends house.  I was looking for one to

keep in my pocket and found the one above.

It was on the floor and I sat with it.  it felt cool

to the touch and yet my hands vibrated and started

sweating.  this went through my whole body.

 

I smelled roses then and told owner of the

shop this.  she said she used to use it for

a lot of healing and at times would put in a rose

garden for good energy.  She also told me

that it was brought back by a friend and

found in a desecrated temple.  It sat in

his garden for years until she got it and used

it for healing. 

 

 I went home 
for perhaps about 6 months and could

not get this stone off of my mind.

I am not usually like this with crystals either.

it was a pricey stone and I was not sure

how I could afford it but finally decided

to call the woman and see if she would

let me make payments.  Well she did

and it took me over a year to pay it off and

finally bring it home. 

being it had sat in the crystal shop and had

dust on it and I was by the ocean I went

with my friends (it is pretty heavy at least

60 pounds, but never weighed it)

as I started to wash it in the ocean

 

I had the image in my head of this

little boy monk with an orange sash

tie off robe with one shoulder exposed.

I thought how interesting.  over time as

I meditated with it a story played out in

my vision of this young monk boy how

he could not sit still and he was punished

sent to a room with this stone. 

 

He grew
up and had a relationship with this stone,

the stone teaching him patience and how to

sit still and go inside.  I am very much like

the monk boy restless never liked sitting

still until lyme disease. 

 

In my mind I feel

this stone has been working with me very

much the same as the monk boy. 

I had not realized that the buddhist monks

did really wear that orange attire until

watching television one day.  I was amazed

as I had wondered about the color he was

wearing in my vision. 

 

This stone really

is very powerful  and some of my clients

cannot handle it under massage table

from the energy it emits.  I really

am honored to be able to have this stone

I really feel it has been one of the many

good things sent my way for healing

regardless of price.  the way I paid for it

 

I feel I have even treasure it more at having

it as I did not think in beginning I could even

afford it.   I feel that during my still time

these past few years this stone has helped me

to deal better with my circumstances and as

the monk boy teaching me to be still

and go within even more then I had before.

below is  some information from online

about healing qualities and history of the

stone. 

SHIVA LINGHAM STONE- Stone of Nurturing. 

The Shiva Lingham Stone is from the sacred Narmada River in Onkar Mandhata, one of India's seven holy sites.  Villagers gather this unique Crypto-crystalline quartz from shallow river beds.  Lingham describes the shape-egg like, but hand polished to balanced proportions.  This often worshiped fertility stone is revered by Hindus as the embodiment of Lord Shiva.  Lingham is also the sacred Sanskrit word for phallus. 

In Tantra, the shape embodies masculine energy, dynamic expression and knowledge.  The markings named Yoni (sacred sanskrit word for vulva), depicts the feminine energy, wisdom and intuition.  Together, the female energy arouses the masculine urge to create.  As such, the Tantric Lingham unifies the dualistic (male female) world into harmonious balance.

The ancient practice of Feng Shui uses the sacred Shiva Lingham Stone to direct the energy flow throughout one's home.  Place a Shiva Lingham in the Relationships/Marriage area of your home to increase fertility and to bring you closer to your partner. 

The Shiva Lingham Stone is physical body stone.  Nurtures second chakra.  A great stone for those who did not receive proper nurturing in childhood.  Use Chrysoprase with the Shiva Lingham stone to add courage to see the early experience and how it effects your life.  Place the Chrysoprase between the first and second chakras in a healing session. 

I have done a blog about my shiva lingham before.
this story is more about an experience I have
had many times with one client and only this one.

If anyone has worked with crystals and might offer
any explanations to what I am about to say,
please feel free to share.

I began working with crystals and massage I
really cannot recall. I started by putting them
under my table for massage and then had a
native american woman come in and tell me
one time I would do more work with healing
and crystals and not be a crystal closet healer.

So anyhow, this one client of mine when I have
a lot of crystals or this one crystal above under
my table will when I am doing energy work with
him start jumping around on my table like a jumping
bean. His body starts jerking it is not voluntary
and it has gotten so bad I have had to go behind by his
head part and be there to catch him in case his head
flopped off the table.

I sometimes think he might even fly off the table.
I have to move the crystals about 6 feet away
from under the table when this happens which is almost
everytime when I use a lot of them or this one above.

I have thought of all kinds of different reasons for this
to happen but am unsure really as to why it does and only
with him. It is only when I start to do energy work, but it
is not until I move the crystals does he stop flopping around.

He said he would let me show in class that I teach on healing
it but he just broke his shoulder and I want to video it.
I think when his shoulder finally heals he might let me I hope.

I could go into explanations that many of you would
not understand even if I explained them or it would
just get too complicated. I will name a few.

1- he does not let things release easily in his life so
when it comes to energy he does the same thing making
his body jerk upon release which causes this flopping sensastion.

2- he has had low back and jaw surgery maybe he has an energy
cyst. something that energetically stays there that has emotional
charge in it which sometimes surgeries or injuries can have.
causing the flopping ( but with all energy work have done
over the years and different types with him do not think
this is it but it used to be a thought)

3- the flopping reminds me of when they do that hopping in
yogic flying to fly. ok who knows about this one lol but I have
thought of everything. here is a video of yogic flying hopping but
imagine instead laying face up on massage table and body
doing it uncontrollably.

June 12 2008