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Spirit for Today (she played with a little girl) Part 2

2010-05-25T05:44:00Z

Part 2

part 1 can be found at this link: Part one click here

Sharon moved away with her family.My parents also moved
us across the county from Belleview to the North side
of Ocala near 326. I was about 15 and in 10th grade
in 1985. The move was a good thing for me and I got
on track again in life for no reason at all just
figured I tried the being bad will go back to being
a nerd again and concentrate on school,
then got a job and worked. I have always
loved to work, and even held odd jobs at
a young age.

A few years passed and it was 1987, I was 17
going into Senior year, we still lived by 326
east area North side of Ocala. I had a job at
the Winn Dixie where the Midnight Rodeo bar
area is now. I was at this job for all of two
weeks. I really hated being a cashier. It was
just so boring, I had to go back to restaurant
work again and do several things at one time.
I was going in to get my last pay check, and
recall giving a man money to get food.
His name was Paul said he used to be a
professor and talked about universal language
so that the world could have peace.am sure some
of you all recall him in this area.
Skinny white haired man long beard mustache
walked hunched over kinda.

I looked up and saw Sharon's husband standing there Jim,
In a security uniform like he was a guard. I was happy to
see him thinking I could find Sharon again now and visit
with her. He said she worked at the end of the strip mall
Winn Dixie was located toward the north side of it was
like a lingerie type shop. So we go in to see her. She
invites me to dinner and we exchange numbers. How odd
Jim said he was a security guard for that place but I
never saw them before there. Ocala was not to bad back
then with crime to need that. How odd also that she
worked right there by me and I never knew it. Odder yet
was getting directions from them they only lived a mile
from 326 if even that far. They lived road that cuts
back by Ford dealership on 441. Was a Mobile home park.
It is not there anymore. A town away and so close again.

I go to dinner. Tell Sharon and Jim how well I am doing
now and they were very happy to hear that. Then Sharon
told me about some of my dreams then taught me some
about crystals and how they could heal and that
she was going to meet a Native American I guess
like a chief or something like that. She was very excited
about it all. We had a nice visit and I learned so much
always in short periods with her. I was like a sponge.
She invited me back again. A few weeks went by and
I went by their new place to say hello and it looked
vacant. It was vacant the park manager said no one
lived there. I said what happened to Sharon and Jim?
He said who? I described them and he looked puzzled
still. Now I was feeling a bit crazy here. I left.

I then went to shop she worked at and went in to see
about her there and they also said they did not know
a Sharon. I described her even asked for the manager
to verify she knew whom I was talking about. She
did not. I must be going nuts? I had to leave and
drop it before the looney bin came to pick me up.

I never knew what to think about what had happened
I knew the second time they came into my life I was
doing really great so was not like they guardians.
The first time for sure they could have been.
Was she for real? Was any of her family I met real?
Her story of:

When she was younger she played with a little
girl up the road. For a long while she played
with her I guess many months not sure she gave
a time period. One day when going she knocked
on the door. Apparently she had not met her parents
before because when she asked for the little
girl the parents shocked said she had been dead
for about 3 years now.She had been playing
with a spirit and had not known she was not real.

Really gives me the thought of where they ghosts/spirits?
I know she guided me but yet it was her husband who
was the one who walked up to show me where she was.
I have asked many their thoughts on this and I get
very blank expressions not knowing if I am for real
in my story or that they my guardian angels.
In my life as well it is interesting that I did not
search out Native Americans or crystals they found me
or I ran into them. She really taught me a lot and
was more than a typical ghost haunting for sure.
Was I eating ghost food or how did I get inside
the houses she lived in? Why did not one person question
whom I was talking to outside the Winn Dixie. Paul
I believe is real have seen him off and on through
the years. I have always questioned these encounters
and it has taken many years to understand it and
for it to make sense and her stories to me and how
really perhaps she was not there in human form either
like the little girl she said she played with.
I keep hoping to see them again some day but perhaps
my memory in this story keeps her spirit alive
enough for me for 23 years later I am just
gutsy enough to share this story.

Spirit for today: Lovey the cat

2010-02-09T02:05:00Z

I did house calls off and on in my career as
a Massage Therapist and would bring crystals
to lay under the massage table to use as generators.
I noticed over time animals lying under the massage table
near the crystals. One such animal was a cat named Lovey.

She had stomach issues and was a thin cat. I decided to
test her with the crystals so when I had an appointment I
would pick a few crystals out I was drawn to just for Lovey.
I put them away from the massage table to the side to see if she
would lay by them . My client on the table, crystals to the side,
Lovey comes in and lays right next to the crystals that I had
chosen for her put to the side. Although I suspected it was
the crystals that did draw her to help her feel good, I also
thought maybe she just wanted to lay near her Mommy my
client under the table. Each appointment I continued to do
the same until the day she passed. I was very appreciative
that Lovey taught me how crystals heal animals too.

Not much time went by and my client says she still see's Lovey
around and hoped she did cross over. I told her I would
come over with the smudge bowl, feather and sage and
do a little cleanse for Lovey. I picked out a few crystals for
Loveys grave they buried her out back. I took out the sage,
clam shell and turkey feather and saged the area and by her
grave I placed the crystals on her grave. As I was saging the
other animals came and sat in a line by me facing Loveys grave.

They knew what I was doing. I would have never believed it if
I had not witnessed it. I had told Lovey to pass to the light
and the animals sat there so quiet the cats and the dogs and
my client. Lovey the cat taught me a lot in her life and death.

Out of body experience

2009-12-30T06:33:00Z

When I was 7 I was hit by a car,
it hit me I flew through the air it was
said to be 20 feet from car but that seems
to be exaggerated. I know I went flying,
I landed on my right shoulder and right head
area of the occiput more so than the left and went
into a spin.

Through meditation and other
things I have seen bits and pieces of my accident.
Otherwise I do not recall it much. What I do recall
is being above my body pretty far up. Watching my
little sister scream "NOOO". I was looking down
at the ambulance my body and her screaming
and the neighbor woman who called ambulance
and woke up my Step-dad at our house. Also,
my Grandpa who had passed when I was 5
was all in white and up there with me. I really
believe he saved my life. I just remember him being
there but not sure he said anything. I also recall

thinking this mostly when out of body,I wish my

sister would stop screaming I am ok I wish
she knew I was ok.

I had no broken bones, could walk, and
talk and get out of bed. Not to say it did not
do some things but overall, considering I
could be dead or crippled from such an accident,
the injuries were not as bad as they could have been.

I never thought about any of this for many years.
I was not treated special after my accident, grew up
in kind of a tough house and if I said something hurt
I was told do not move it and such, and when you
can get up from something like that you just do. Something
inside of you just pushes you knowing you could be dead.
Also I saw spirits and ghosts and my Grandma
called crazy for same thing so I just never told
anyone this when I was younger.
I would have not been believed.

I am not sure what happened between the scene
of accident to the hospital, I do not recall that.
The X-ray table was very cold and that is
when I regained consciousness, I was back in my body.

~Catherine http://www.ocalaghostwalks.com/

2009 my paranormal review of as the stomach churns and the good things too

2009-12-27T07:59:00Z

The year 2009 I could say if was a title be called
"2009, B rated movie that never ends" but also "Living my dream"
Am not sure where to begin this story. Hmm, maybe October
2008. That was when GH Taps came to the Seven Sisters Inn.
well it was before that it aired October 1, 2008. That was the
beginning.

I had worked at the Seven Sisters Inn doing Massage
therapy as the guests would request, for 11 years.
I have also lived and worked in the historic district area
for about 13 years lived 2 houses down from the 7 Sisters
in a very haunted house and been in many other houses in
that area that were haunted. Back in 1995 when first really
going in the Tuscawilla historic district then about 1997 in
the fort king street historic district people were not really
open to the ghost subject. not like they are today.
So, my experiences I did tell some but it was pretty limited
in fear on how it would be received. This was nothing new to
me as others when I was younger told me I was seeing
things, evil or just plain weird, going to hell. you name it
I have heard it all.

Well I was at a metaphysical fair on November 2nd 2008.
Met a group that did ghost walks just started previous week
in that same area. I told them about my history in that area
and that I also worked at 7 Sisters Inn doing massage and
readings. They wanted me on their tour that night, and on
that night realizing how much I have experienced in the area
and the fact I been at the 7 Sisters for 11 years was a big plus.
We ended up being able to do ghost tours through houses
as part of our tours. 2 houses how wonderful. I was the
one who did the tours because I k new the houses very well
after 11 years. Plus it was amazing even to me that
I could get readings on the emf and rf detectors in both houses
without fail the spirits would come and show people they
existed and never once made me a liar. They sure did make
me sweat it though several times but they always came in the end.

This is where it gets weird. the paranormal group I was working
with the main guy has a lying problem not only that he likes to
create drama for people. especially if they had been on his
team before. wow we had sometimes 2-4 people a week
attacking our team and leaving nasty messages. little did we
know the main guy was stirring all this trouble up. and some of it
was not harmless at all. then you have other groups trying to get you.
one man from a shop would get fake investigation and have me go
to make me out a fake except guess what why did my equipment light
up. some type of spirit there.   it was supposed to be a house that
had no ghost but guess what it did. scientifically it was proved.

a way to test a psychic is not lie. just have them go somewhere and
do reading. because of what we have to go through to have
this gift we do not on the whole operate well under those conditions
of being tested with lies.   I do not want to decipher the liars
from the honest ones. I have a fault that overides my senses
called I want to trust what people are telling me. I have learned
in the paranormal world to go with my gut.

We were so fortunate to meet people in the paranormal world.
Kristyn Gartland, Angela Alderman, Chip Coffey, Patrick Burns,
Rob Demarrest, and Darkness Dave. They came for events
at the 7 Sisters Inn and we were invited for free to come.
Then I was embarrassed by their immaturity and people
would say omg why are you on their team they so immature
or they could care less about investigating. and the main guy
he would rather just talk about penis.   not even kidding
on tour he would also do that. list goes on and on and on
how much I had to deal with.

Ok, so the paranormal team and I decide let's be dorks and
do a show. we paid people to film it for us, I paid more than half
not repaid much of it of course. Then a whole lot of drama started
oh ya fun fun fun. First the shop guy filmed us they brought
a circus or 3 of them so many people. then another psychic that
also works with shop guy. I really admired her work and
we both have done house readings and such and have gotten
same information so she and I either are real deal or both
full of it and same info. We go in separately. come out same stuff.
Awesome much respect to her and her work. Not awesome for me.

So we did not use shop guy and his film crew because it just
was horrible and we used these other producers. fine we had to
pay them. so that took forever and we finally filmed in February
still owing them some. main paranomal guy on team was working
with still lying to so many. he told psychic with shop guy she could
be on team and show. well then we changed film people and he
never put her on show. she knew the new producer and was mad
she was not on the show. then that is when i became the bad
person.

Within weeks of that show being filmed 2nd time new location,
these ridiculous things happened. I wish I could make such
things up LMAO. some are funny now.

so the psychic that also worked with shop guy and so did I, said
I was sending her black magic and she was all bruised. she even
went to show people in the metaphysical world her bruises everywhere
she went. Now at this time I was doing a lot of protection
just due to nature of work and felt some cruddy stufff coming.
I never send out bad or do black magic at all. so basically
if her story was true and she is bruised it is because she was
sending something bad to me. I honestly could not believe
she was going around and doing that and showing people
bruises. Honestly, where did she get them. I now think she is
nuts and maybe even pinched herself just to get the part in
the stupid show. I tell you it made me MADDDD. I wanted to
bruise her then. Jeesh where do people get this stuff from really?

next thing that happened was some dope of a guy for the main
guy of paranormal team I worked with went into shop guys
shop and yelled at him for money he thought he was due.
this had nothing what so ever to do with me. i was kicked out
of the shop because of the paranormal team i worked with.
really shop guy was mad because we did not use him for
filming I was the easy ass to kick. i lost clients for readings
as I was not there or at metaphysical gatherings anymore.
Never do work like that unless you get the clients names.
It is worth it if something like this happens to you.

Do you think I am done, Hell No. Not even. 5 score
and milleniums later we paid off producer people
as they threatened to not edit the show, so I paid them off.
then April came and they forclosed the Seven Sisters Inn.
there was a petition but it was never sent or mailed to
the banker. that really made me upset. why all the work
to not even send in petition. Then the last night to help
the owners of 7 sisters pack their personal things
and such. paranormal team I worked with was supposed
to help. one showed for few minutes left and no one ever came.
It was the 2 owners and another man and myself that stayed
until 3 a.m.   I was tired of the lying, manipulation and also
the lack of professionalism and if you say you are gonna do
something do it. So, by this point a woman on the team and I
safeguarded the team by putting occupational license in our
name and also made ourselves members of chamber of commerce
here in Ocala. It was my money though and once again I was never
paid back.

Not only that she backstabbed me saying I forced her into
doing all that stuff when main guy mad. I told him he needed
some major help for all the lying and problems he caused people
and it was not minor stuff as I said. He even said one guy killed
babies for ritual really serious stuff that just simply was not true.
So I think it was maybe 2 days after the 7 Sisters forclosure
and they told me to sign contract with them and I refused saying
until they got their act together I would not sign one thing..
I have already told them I would not sign a contract so they kicked
me out. Now I was with them from November-April
and now that the 7 Sisters was closed and was no tour to do
through there bye bye.   It does not end there. I went through
months of slander, them antagonizing me in public, going by
beeping cursing at me even causing someone on my tour to
almost have panic attack. why did they do this because the main
guy told them I knew a lot of people in town and paranomal
world we better ruin her because he knew what a piece of crap
he was. I also would not quit doing the ghost walks. it was my
thought to keep doing them year round my vision. I saw it so strong.

I was still licensed and had a year membership to chamber of
commerce and then when they called the police on me
that was it. I did nothing it was all in effort to ruin me. never once
did anything go through in fact the cops told me it was apparent
the main guy was harrassing me.

upon finding out I was no longer with paranormal team the shop guy
wanted me back. I started to get people again when they saw I was
there because I was accurate it ended up coming true. in the end
shop guy once again from others talking smack and his own
mind decided I was to negative to bring to new shop, so once
again I was not there, which really is not good for business.
I will never go back he will not have another chance to ask me to
leave or say one more negative thing about me. not to mention
saying I talked about him but really he was the one
who said things about me that would get back to me. it gets old

might I add that shop guy and main paranormal guys had one thing in common
they loved to cut down my gifts testing me telling me how others
said I was a fake. other psychics jumped in on this wagon as well
it just was ridiculous. I have people around the country
that can vouch for me, and time and time again it made me
stand up for myself and believe and know that their untruths of me
does not represent me. in the end they will just look back. both of
them all of them have done me harm. paranormal group and their main
guy, shop guy his psychic and other psychics and all else who decided
to jump on in. I am hardly a victim because you know what I did
everytime these people pissed me off I would work on my Ghost walks
my website or hand out flyers and talk to people go around get
history. I kept going. It proved to be successful to me in this way
around Halloween time that group had 1/4 of what I had on their ghost walk.

it was not because I bad mouthed them it was because I put a lot
more positive energy into mine. This is not to say I did not tell some
the story, but everyone thought I was nuts. he even had the news people
fooled and they would not list me like they did them. I am not naming
names of any sort for professional and obvious reasons.

I will tell you this, I floated for months when this first started which
made me ignore the lies at first and what I was getting psychically.
my friends said i predicted it and then it happened with much of it.
sometimes the bad things bring good to you. I have had this lesson
before for sure. What a heck of a year but I am glad this B rated movie
is over. I will not even tolerate this nonsense anymore, after being
attacked for months like I was the leash is short. I kept thinking if I
ignored them it would stop and it just did not. Amazing how people
have been in this paranormal world and shows and such. If you
try to do well people are quick to beat you out of it cut you down
ruin you. they contacted even my friends told them lies saying
I hated them could not stand them I was a fake and all I cared about
was money. blah blah blah

I am pretty sure I am meant to be doing this ghost walk and everything
else I was doing. I have survived a lot in life just coming back this past
year from a serious illness that took life as I knew it. I am truly meant to be
here doing something. It seems all the experiences paranormally I had
in the past in the historic district prepared me for this very time. The time
to talk is now. I kept going even with groups after me to try and ruin. I am still
here and I am a tough bitch.

http://www.ocalaghostwalks.com/

Spirit for Today: Ghost Peeing

2009-12-23T06:34:00Z

First, let me start this by saying I wish
my imagination could make this up the story
I am about to tell you. I am pretty creative
but I would never really think to write about
this subject. Not ever. I know I have posted
that a client of mine heard a ghost peeing.
It was really funny, and true as she said
her and her husband both heard it. Now,
most of me always tries to believe someone,
and a small part of me doubts. I am sure
this is natural even though some of us in
the paranormal world or that see and sense
them experience things that are unbelievable.
This is about at the top of that list of not
being believable.

I gave a massage today at a clients house.
As I walked in her house smelled just fine.
I have a sensitive nose and I would smell
something off right away. Her house
did not have a smell that I can recall bad
or good just a house smell. She turned over
on her back half way through the massage,
and as I was massaging her feet I started
to smell pee real strong human or dog,
I stated this as it just shocked me was
by my left leg her right foot area I smelt
it. The smell went away. Then we talked
about the smell a few minutes later,
wondering what it could be. The smell
came back again. This time I was doing
her right arm. She smelled it as well.

I then saw a man that was scruffy looking
that had salt and pepper hair beard, shorts
and like a tropical shirt. She said it was not
another spirit that we knew was there,
that was not what he looked like. Then she
said something about this man that
pitched a tent when they first bought the
property and he did not want to leave
and her hubby had to kick him off.

That was it and we smelled it again.
It was annoying at this point, kept doing it.
We could not help but talk about it again
and each time we did smell would come back.

I had some white sage in my car and brought it
in after the massage was over. She lit it
walked around kitchen and living room area
and as she stood in living room a breeze
started to come by us and blow, it blew the
sage out. We both noticed it. There was
no A/C running or heat or fans, no windows open.
nothing to create a breeze we were standing
still.

I left came home, actually forgot about the whole
thing and tonight she IM me and here is our
conversation. I will put client for her name.

CLIENT:::Catherine the name of the guy I was trying to think of today was Floyd. Told hubby about the pee thing and he told me what this man looked like...described him as scruffy beard, salt n pepper in color, weird hat, always wore it and last time he saw him he was in a plaid jacket. This is the one I think was in the house today and peed in the living room

said his beard was long

Ocala:::

ya

scruffy

my description fits his except jacket

he must have passed

is it better now no more pee?

CLIENT:::
Hubby owned the property but the guy had set up a tent and was living here hubby had to run him off
none that I can smell,know the draft was unreal when he left

Ocala:::

maybe he died recently who knows

yes that was interesting

it really was

CLIENT:::

I don't know but is weird cause hubby said he was thinking about him yesterday for no reason

just popped in his mind

Ocala

ya weird. tell him to set up camp next door

CLIENT:::

so think thats our spirit, know the sage made him leave..yeah stop peeing in my house

just wanted you to know that

Ocala

that is pretty cool must be him

he not being very nice for sure

kept peeing by us as we talked about it

CLIENT:::

I'll let you know if anymore happens...I'll deal with him
yeah hubby thinks it was him, said he was real nasty person

was squating on his property and hubby had to threaten to call the cops on him if he didn't leave

said it took about a month to get him totally off the property

Ocala

i wish we could make this stuff up lol

CLIENT:::
LOL

Ocala

amazing

we being peed by

CLIENT:::

LOL

Ocala:::

then we talk abut it happen again

lmao

Client:::

hat, beard down to color, and the plaid jacket close enough for a tropical shirt, color

Ocala:::

ya

or maybe that kind of shirt under jacket

who knows

CLIENT:::

right

well it happened

Ocala:::

ya lol

CLIENT:::

the rush of wind did it

Ocala:::

yes that was neat

really funny now

lol

CLIENT:::

bye bye spirit..told hubby you said that..LOL

Ocala

is a first to me

ya
CLIENT:::

Thanks for the sage...love it good smell

Ocala

yes is the good white sage

welcome

Ok back to the story. that really is the end
See I cannot even go do a massage without
something happening. Will have to write about
a client who left me because of a spirit another
time. Anyone ever had any of this happen? LOL

http://www.ocalaghostwalks.com/

Wolves and Ticks and Cows OH MY

2009-12-21T03:33:00Z

March 22, 2007

There are many things that goes along with having an animal as a totem. this means you are in tune with the wolf for another animal. This means that often, the person who has a wolf totem shares characteristics and social habits with the wolf. This is exactly how it is for me.

There are two types of wolf behaviors, and with this, comes two types of totem. That of the pack wolf, and that of the loner. There is a large difference between the two.

The pack wolves live in a communal structure with a very strict heirarchy. There is a dominant pair, called the Alpha pair that leads the pack. These are the only wolves that breed within the pack. The others would not even think of it, but instead help with the raising of the pups produced by the alpha pairing. On the bottom of the hierarcyis the Omega wolf. This wolf is often bullied and is the one that must go without food when it is scarce. The Omega wolf is usually a loner that has just joined the pack.

Though the alpha male is the leader of the pack, that does not mean that it is a complete autocratic system. The alpha male often seeks wisdom from those in its pack, but this does not mean it is a democracy either. It is a delicate balance of the two.Having a wolf totem, this means that you must establish this harmony in your life to achieve the spiritual and true freedom. (I am very independent person and do not like to be told what to do, but am always open to suggestions)

Wolves of the pack are strong in the sense of community and are extremely loyal to those within the pack. Even moreso are the alpha pairing, as their loyalty, sense of community, and strength are what keeps the wolf pack alive. The wolf totem gives this to the human. They are loyal and their friendships are strong and they can survive the battles of time. (very loyal)

Communication is an important topic with wolves. Their language has a variety of sounds such as yips, yelps, whines, howls, growls, and barks. It is also one of posture, facial expression, and tail positions. Their howl is one of the most important. It carries overlarge distances and can be used to help locate pack members, establish the boundaries of its territory, as well as strengthen group unity.This sound often gives the haunting, chilling feeling to those humans listening. Those with the wolf totem find this soothing, and may even have the urge to howl back.(I love to hear a pack of wolves howl so much is better then flying in an aerobatic plane. woo hooo, I feel it so deep inside me) Howling back, however, can be dangerous as the wolves will adapt to sound like the humans, and forget their own howls.Those with wolf totems are usually very expressive. This involves using your hands and posture to make yourself clearly understood. (I cannot go to auctions because if I talk then I raise the price lol because I use my hands) Though it takes time, this skill can be sharpened and this use of gestures can be more effective than those without the wolf totem. (communication is very important to me)

Wolves do not like to fight unless it is totally necessary. Often, the wolves will go out of their way to avoid fighting. Disagreements rarely end in fighting. Many times a look or low growl in warning is all that is needed to avoid conflict. In this way, those with wolf totem are also prone to avoid these confrontations, preferring peace to war.These people also do not feel the need to show their strength orabilities to those around them. Their confidence is enough. (I do not like to fight)

When it comes to hunting, the pack wolves have a complex hunting system, though it seems very simple. The pack members simply take turns chasing down their prey, so that their prey becomes weak and tired long before the wolves. This is very important as wolves do not have a long endurance when traveling at its higher speeds of 24-28 miles/hour.Even though the wolves are great predators, they do limit their prey to the sick, young, or ill. After catching their prey, they eat all parts of their prey, not leaving anything behind except the bones. Those that have the wolf totems also do not like waste. If they take something,they will use as much of it as they possibly can. If they are unsure of the use of something, they most likely will try to find out. (I do not like to waste at all and sometimes eat too much like a wolf; I have fed them quarter chicken is like one chomp to break bone then swallow, we need to learn how to chew more, lol)

Wolves have very strong senses of smell and hearing. This sense of smell helps the wolf greatly with hunting, or territorial duties. The wolf also has a thick coat which helps protect the wolf from both weather as well as its predators. This does not mean that those with the wolf totem has a strong sense of smell and hearing and are hairy.(have strong sense of smell and hearing and am hairy lol) It is a more metaphorical ability to listen to intuition and inner thoughts. Often,these intuitions are valid and correct. The fur of the wolf, or hair on the human, is associated with psychic abilities. This goes with the sense of intuition. By listening to ones inner thoughts and feelings,those of the wolf totem can sharpen their ability to listen to their spirit and be able to deal with the struggles that may come their way.

The loner wolf is one that lives outside of a pack. They do not have any territory, nor do they have other wolves to help them hunt. They must forage for what they can find, which usually includes small animals, or the carcasses left by other hunting animals. If found in the territory belonging to a pack of wolves, this wolf would usually be fought and often is killed as a result. Other times, if it manages to survive the fights, they will join the pack as the Omega wolf.

A wolf can be a loner for a couple different reasons. It could be born to another lone wolf or it could be chased off by their pack. This is usually done if they disobey the commands of the Alpha pairing, or they have some kind of deformity. Whether it is something as obvious as twisted legs that make it unable to keep up with the pack, or a difference of colouring. This wolf must learn to survive on its own.

What animal do you relate to in life??? For me it is the wolf. Although am not native american these things have come to me in life. If anyone believes in spirit guides then mine would have to be a white wolf. He is large, very long hair and tall.Much bigger then real live ones I have saw. green eyes. but I still do not know his name, is a male. in time it will come. I was first aware of him in 1997 when I saw his form in my living room. http://www.myspace.com/lymediseaseawareness) He has come to me in my dreams and I have seen him like he was real.

Because of him I have chased other white wolfsand ended up helping them hence the pictures on my profile. the babies come from the dad Noah. Noah belonged to client of mind with 7others. Long story short,(whole story at this site written sometime last year but do not recall exactly when and just put on this site in february so could save it somewhere. http://www.helium.com/tm/158610/fairies-watch-animals-protect I had very bad feeling called all over united states to get them help and finally called fish and wildlife. they did take the babies left the adults there. sigh, was a dead one found when someone went first time with hardly any hair left. meaning was there for a while in with live wolves. I cried all day about this. then I called Shy wolf Sanctuary(http://www.shywolfsanctuary.com/) and they helped a lot. they now have the babies that are not babies anymore, just in the pics I have. I have met other neat people because of name white wolf and is where i got my tick at lol but i still love him my white wolf with no name.

Well my friend Betty has friend named white wolf and he did ceremonies at her property. (I love Betty dearly she has done a lot to help the earth. Battled long and hard one time for 10 years to stop waterway from being broke apart to electrichydroplant. or something to that affect. anyhow even though she loves the earth so much and fights for it she will not listen to me about lyme disease ( http://www.myspace.com/lymediseasesupport and be tested and still has ceremonies there and 3 of us has come down with lyme. is what I heard. She does now tell them to use spray and look for ticks. Which is better then nothing I suppose. Her comment to this was I have had ticks on me all the time and I am fine. Yet in December she was found driving wrong side of street they said was stroke. Could be she is 87 however, before this she had tummy problems and bladder acting up again and it was fine. who knows, will keep trying to educate her and others.) sorry sidetracked back to wolves........................

I for a while did not see my white wolf and it really bothered me. a woman who thought she was a shaman told me he was gone from me. I felt like part of me was gone and I mourned him. then one day I meditated and I saw him decayed into the ground almost but not yet dead in my minds eye. I sat with this for awhile.................then decided that even though I perceived the wolf as male the white wolf was part of me and I felt like that image from this lyme disease. almost dead but still a little alive. when discovering this it made me so happy that I did not loose my white wolf because it is part of me.

Betty also asked that I would have help to get better as she is very caring . So an intuitive she knew told her that the wolves that passed there were 3 in total at clients house, were with me and other ones to help me heal. Well little did she know I was craving red meat so much steaks in particular (sorry vegetarians) that I one day was so hungry for it and drove past a cow field and looked hard at them cows lol. I drove to get some steak to eat right away before chasing cows. Well I laughed told Betty if she hears of me chasing cows and getting locked up she better call them wolf spirits off lol. I am sure I was anemic at this point.

so please share with me what animal do you feel strongly bonded to and why??????????

Spirit for Today: Why I would rather be thrown to the wolves

2009-12-21T03:30:00Z

November 7, 2007 - Wednesday

Spirit for today; Why I would rather be thrown to the wolves

In 1997 I was in my living room
and I looked over by enertainment
center and saw the spirit of a
large beautiful white wolf
with very long hair and larger
then any wolf I have seen alive.

I felt the wolf was not from this time.
I started to dream about him, for some
reason the energy is male to me.
In my dreams he has even protected me.
I have always loved dogs if you have
read my previous posts but never
thought about wolves much before this
honestly.

Ten years ago too I tried to doubt the
spirits that I saw except the white wolf
did not go away. Several years passed
and I started doing massage for a woman
who raised mccaws they are beautiful birds.
she could not afford massage so she paid me
in feathers.

Yes I said she paid me in feathers. I
meditated and saw in my minds eye
a red swirl thing made out of wood
with red feathers hanging from it, so when
she suggested that I said sure.
I have never found a complete red feather
lol. they sure are beautiful though.

I had a large bag full of feathers black bag.
I brought it with me to show my friend one
day it was in the back of my car.
We were arrow head hunting and I forgot
to show them to her. We were not finding
arrow heads or even any flakes so we drove
on and saw a pow wow, the sign actually
said biker pow wow. we were not sure what
this was so I said lets go.

Well, we went it was native americans and
some bikers. we walked around and I
saw some feathers in the vendors tents for
decoration on some things. I said to a woman
I have a huge bag of mccaw feathers she
said take them to Mabel. I found Mabel and
she wanted them all. I traded feathers for
crystals and sage.

I got to know Mabel and she told me
of a woman not far from me that had wolves
since I loved them everytime I saw one at
pow wow it reminded me of my spirit
white wolf.

(Noah)

I went to meet this woman and she had 7
wolves at the time. hearing them howl
really hit me so deep inside and made me
so happy. going inside meeting them
first thing right away comes a male white
wolf with green eyes named Noah.
I was in love. he did not have the
long hair but wow he was beautiful.
over time things got worse and
because this story is long already
it will have to be another blog
of what happened to the wolves.

They were mistreated and not fed
right. she left a dead one in with the
live ones that barely had hair so it
was there for a while. How someone
could do that to animals is beyond me.

How would you like to have to
watch a family member decompose??
watching hair go away the skin the organs.
this is what these wolves had to endure and
are still living there.

babies were saved though. so because
of my whitewolf spirit I have been on a
journey and not a real fun one either.
Wolves are the hardest animal I have
ever tried to help. I cannot even say
how many calls I made and how many
states I called.

wolves are made out to be these horrible
creatures and they are so shy in nature.
I am naturally shy myself and if you met
a wild wolf they would try to leave more
than anything.

The saying "might as well throw them to
the wolves" rings in my mind. Wolves are
very family oriented, and have a lot
more values then so many humans do.

I would rather be thrown to the wolves
then be thrown to the people if the
truth be known.

Spirit for Today: house in forest

2009-12-21T03:28:00Z

December 17, 2007 - Monday

Spirit for today::: house in forest (not short)
Category: Dreams and the Supernatural

I have written some about a
house I went to here in the forest.
the whole property has spirits.
before I went there I was warned
that everyone who had gone there
before me who was intuitive or even
a priest had gotten sick or something
happened to even prevent them from
going.

I really felt like I was supposed to
go so I set up a time and went
early evening. 6ish I believe.
my biggest concern was the spirits
trying to drain me or attack me like
the others and having a lyme relapse.
yet I still went. I took sage and prayed
the whole way there.

I could not find the street I kept going
by it. It really was not that hard to find.
I found the house finally after going
by it several times. It was one of the
first on the I had turned on.

I met the couple, they are young very
nice. the man his Mother is intuitive.
something bad happened and
think she was attacked by dark
side and ended up in mental hospital.
he is also native american and felt
he had strong ties to that even if he
did not realize it, but he did.

he himself had a lot of power inside
of him. I felt the spirits wanted him.
I walked around in the house felt a
lot of activity and negativity by tv wall
leading into their bedroom. it was
very active in there but was in whole
place really.

The wife has a cross under her pillow.
she was very scared by this all.
there was a lot of poltergeist activity.
I sat on the couch in the living room,
and sensed a little girl she was by
herself not part of the big blob.
she had flowers on her dress and
felt she hung out with the wife a lot.
the little girl was scared too.

I told the wife this and she has seen
her before. a little girls name was
carved out back on house with flowers
by her name. she died of an illness
or something.

I then went to the buildings in the back
of the house, and went in guest house.
this is one of the most evil places I have
felt ever. This is the place that sent
the priest running out of their place.
the guest house.

at first all was ok. the husband did not
want to leave me alone in there
but for some reason I wanted to be left.
at first they would not let me. upstairs
I felt like little kids were hurt or at least
one little girl. it did not seem the same
as the one I had saw in living room.
as I held my hands over the wall by the
bed I started feeling queezy in my stomach.
I feel a lot in my body and hands and
tend to use them to run over things to
feel what is going on.

I then started to feel tired. As soon as
this started I pulled my hands away.
am sure said more prayers. when I am
in deep the prayer that comes out of me
is the "Our Father" prayer. not sure why
and do not care it seems to work and
I just say it over and over and over
if am in such situations.

I would not allow it to drain me. They
showed me pictures of it draining
others and I could see it. Very disturbing.
It was like they wanted to see if it would
drain them. They had so many people
out there already before me. all of them
drained paranormal investigators, psychics,
priest, you name it.

I went downstairs in the guest house,
and they finally let me be alone. This
probably was not wise but luckily nothing
major happened. I sat there and again
but stronger this time upset stomach,
headache coming on and tiredness.
I got up and went out. I was not there
to let it drain me at all.

Throughout walking around outside and
inside I felt someone had practiced
black occult there and had put things
there without realizing what they were
doing. Again this was confirmed
they had found out 2 women confessed
witches were the previous owners.
not all witches practice black occult
but these two did. this was another
confirmation for me of information
I was getting was correct.

I also felt they did voo doo dolls
and other things left on property again
confirmed. they had found it but just
buried it. I told them they needed to find
it and burn it. Nothing happened
to me while walking around other then few
times in guest house.

there were so many spirits there
and so many popping out at me
it was crazy. I saw spirits of hitchhiking
women who I felt were killed
I do forget information I said about that
though about dates and such. He said
there were killings out there upon his
research missing women some
could have been hitchhikers.

what I did not get is why were all
of these spirits at this one house??
they did not all die there for sure.

this is what I figured out:::

the little girl did die there or while
she lived in the house, the one
with flower dress. the big
blob of yuck scared her too.

the people who did black occult
practices opened a bad place
there kind of like a vortex, so this
drew spirits from around.

the husband who has gifts
was a nice source of light for them.
I have seen spirits my whole life and
I have been born with these gifts,
and so was he. he hid from them
because his Mom had troubles
before for being intuitive.
anyhow the spirits love me
and they also love him. these
however for most part are not positive
spirits. even demonic in feeling.

because they keep having so many
out there it has made this thing
grow and drawn even more spirits.
it come to find was more of a novelty.
I tried to explain how serious of a thing
it was for him to not keep having
shamans and all these people who say
they know what they are doing and do not.
he knew people were being drained,
but did not realize it was feeding this thing.

I even got a Father from Episcopal church
who is not afraid of such things but knows
how to get rid of them to go with me, but
the husband has not called the Father.
the wife really wanted it gone he did not.

Part 2

I went back this time bringing a friend
of a friends. I wanted someone there with
me that was not afraid. Well I think she
was intrigued but really did not realize
what was out there. I warned her
and said that biggest thing is do not
be afraid. Also prayers of protection
and I brought sage and crystals.

I wanted her there with me because
it is better to not go alone to these
type of things really.   If I had to do it
over again I would have went alone,
as it was a distraction to me on
getting information and such and paying
attention to what was going on around
the house instead of her.

When we first pulled up to the house
she did not want to get out of the car.
I did not want her to stay alone either,
seeing pictures of people being
drained by whatever that was out
there convinced me of that.

So she got out of the car. I brought
out my sage bowl and sage lit it and started
walking around the house with her
and the lit sage. I saged us both before we
started as well.

We did not walk half way around the yard
and she started stumbling like.
Weaving back and forth it was
pretty scary as this had never
happened to me before. I told her to
keep praying. She did but it kept
happening.

The owners were not home yet so I
was doing the outside first and see if pick
up anything.   As I walked by the lake
I had images of dark practices happening
there and that something from that
was buried in the yard around that area.
Or something put into a fire that did not
burn all the way.

I then went back up towards the house other
side of the yard all the time she swayed
off and on, I had to keep attending to her.
She said that if she was in the sage
smoke she was ok, but without
sage smoke going directly on her
it made her wobbly.

I did manage to walk up past 3
buildings. 2 were like sheds
and one is that guest house that
likes to drain people. in front of
the second building I had seen
a black woman slave like bent down
on ground and a white man was whipping
her brutally. He was gonna kill her
and she made a run for it around the side
past the 3 buildings in the backside
up to the house.

This scene played over and over and over.
She would run up the side of the house
by their bedroom window.
They told me a dark figure runs past
their bedroom window frantically
and bangs on it. That really made sense
since she was running for her life.

I wondered if this had really happened
and if so was it there on that property
or did they drift there like many other
wayward spirits.

It also may have
been such a strong energy if it happened there
that it just left an implant of that,
however I am not sure if implant energy
would knock on a window or show a dark
shadow running.   Always still learning.

That is about all I could manage to get done
that trip because the person I brought with
me kept stumbling and kept having to watch
her.   She also said at times felt like
she was being pushed and it looked
like it too.

I thought after this would never bring
someone out like that again unless they had
done this type of thing before. The owners
of the house were having people come few
days after me and just kept feeding this thing
So I decided that unless they really wanted
it gone then I would not go back.

I really also felt that the spirits
wanted the man although that
may sound strange as this whole story.
The spirits tortured his wife made her
so afraid and in begining of talking
with him he seemed like he was
interested in getting rid of what
was ever in his house and around it.

I had felt it was straining their
marriage.   He has allowed it to drain him
as well as I had seen pictures he showed me.
Upon thinking of it all I think that
whatever is out there will drain
anyone that will let it, never seen
anything like it really.

It really is nothing

to play with as there are very

dark things out there

that are not

controllable once they

are released.

Shiva Lingham

2009-12-21T03:20:00Z

2/22/08

How I came to get this shiva lingham is not a short story

of course. I ordered the wrong book for crystals

and opened the book and it opened to the page and picture

of shiva lingham. Right away I was attracted to this gemstone.

It is not very beautiful or even colorful but the healing

properties in it are amazing.

Off I went to crystal shop I knew of 2 hours away

by a friends house. I was looking for one to

keep in my pocket and found the one above.

It was on the floor and I sat with it. it felt cool

to the touch and yet my hands vibrated and started

sweating. this went through my whole body.

I smelled roses then and told owner of the

shop this. she said she used to use it for

a lot of healing and at times would put in a rose

garden for good energy. She also told me

that it was brought back by a friend and

found in a desecrated temple. It sat in

his garden for years until she got it and used

it for healing.

I went home
for perhaps about 6 months and could

not get this stone off of my mind.

I am not usually like this with crystals either.

it was a pricey stone and I was not sure

how I could afford it but finally decided

to call the woman and see if she would

let me make payments. Well she did

and it took me over a year to pay it off and

finally bring it home.

being it had sat in the crystal shop and had

dust on it and I was by the ocean I went

with my friends (it is pretty heavy at least

60 pounds, but never weighed it)

as I started to wash it in the ocean

I had the image in my head of this

little boy monk with an orange sash

tie off robe with one shoulder exposed.

I thought how interesting. over time as

I meditated with it a story played out in

my vision of this young monk boy how

he could not sit still and he was punished

sent to a room with this stone.

He grew
up and had a relationship with this stone,

the stone teaching him patience and how to

sit still and go inside. I am very much like

the monk boy restless never liked sitting

still until lyme disease.

In my mind I feel

this stone has been working with me very

much the same as the monk boy.

I had not realized that the buddhist monks

did really wear that orange attire until

watching television one day. I was amazed

as I had wondered about the color he was

wearing in my vision.

This stone really

is very powerful and some of my clients

cannot handle it under massage table

from the energy it emits. I really

am honored to be able to have this stone

I really feel it has been one of the many

good things sent my way for healing

regardless of price. the way I paid for it

I feel I have even treasure it more at having

it as I did not think in beginning I could even

afford it. I feel that during my still time

these past few years this stone has helped me

to deal better with my circumstances and as

the monk boy teaching me to be still

and go within even more then I had before.

below is some information from online

about healing qualities and history of the

stone.

SHIVA LINGHAM STONE- Stone of Nurturing.

The Shiva Lingham Stone is from the sacred Narmada River in Onkar Mandhata, one of India's seven holy sites. Villagers gather this unique Crypto-crystalline quartz from shallow river beds. Lingham describes the shape-egg like, but hand polished to balanced proportions. This often worshiped fertility stone is revered by Hindus as the embodiment of Lord Shiva. Lingham is also the sacred Sanskrit word for phallus.

In Tantra, the shape embodies masculine energy, dynamic expression and knowledge. The markings named Yoni (sacred sanskrit word for vulva), depicts the feminine energy, wisdom and intuition. Together, the female energy arouses the masculine urge to create. As such, the Tantric Lingham unifies the dualistic (male female) world into harmonious balance.

The ancient practice of Feng Shui uses the sacred Shiva Lingham Stone to direct the energy flow throughout one's home. Place a Shiva Lingham in the Relationships/Marriage area of your home to increase fertility and to bring you closer to your partner.

The Shiva Lingham Stone is physical body stone. Nurtures second chakra. A great stone for those who did not receive proper nurturing in childhood. Use Chrysoprase with the Shiva Lingham stone to add courage to see the early experience and how it effects your life. Place the Chrysoprase between the first and second chakras in a healing session.

Crystal healing an experience

2009-12-21T03:18:00Z

I have done a blog about my shiva lingham before.
this story is more about an experience I have
had many times with one client and only this one.

If anyone has worked with crystals and might offer
any explanations to what I am about to say,
please feel free to share.

I began working with crystals and massage I
really cannot recall. I started by putting them
under my table for massage and then had a
native american woman come in and tell me
one time I would do more work with healing
and crystals and not be a crystal closet healer.

So anyhow, this one client of mine when I have
a lot of crystals or this one crystal above under
my table will when I am doing energy work with
him start jumping around on my table like a jumping
bean. His body starts jerking it is not voluntary
and it has gotten so bad I have had to go behind by his
head part and be there to catch him in case his head
flopped off the table.

I sometimes think he might even fly off the table.
I have to move the crystals about 6 feet away
from under the table when this happens which is almost
everytime when I use a lot of them or this one above.

I have thought of all kinds of different reasons for this
to happen but am unsure really as to why it does and only
with him. It is only when I start to do energy work, but it
is not until I move the crystals does he stop flopping around.

He said he would let me show in class that I teach on healing
it but he just broke his shoulder and I want to video it.
I think when his shoulder finally heals he might let me I hope.

I could go into explanations that many of you would
not understand even if I explained them or it would
just get too complicated. I will name a few.

1- he does not let things release easily in his life so
when it comes to energy he does the same thing making
his body jerk upon release which causes this flopping sensastion.

2- he has had low back and jaw surgery maybe he has an energy
cyst. something that energetically stays there that has emotional
charge in it which sometimes surgeries or injuries can have.
causing the flopping ( but with all energy work have done
over the years and different types with him do not think
this is it but it used to be a thought)

3- the flopping reminds me of when they do that hopping in
yogic flying to fly. ok who knows about this one lol but I have
thought of everything. here is a video of yogic flying hopping but
imagine instead laying face up on massage table and body
doing it uncontrollably.

June 12 2008

Flying Dream

2009-12-21T03:16:00Z

July 1, 2008 - Tuesday

Last night I had a dream I was learning to fly!
Category: Dreams and the Supernatural

I went to bed very early for me at 11pm
and more then recalling the dream
I recall how it felt to do it.

I knew I was learning to fly
but what I was doing was more like
levitating. it was all about mind control.

I was not sitting either but more on my
back and kind of balled up. I would think
ok up now and I would float up.
Then I would think ok down now and I would
float down. it seemed someone was there
coaching me but have no recollection of
whom. I was so amazed in my dream
that I could do this by thought alone.

then it happened I woke up around 1:30 a.m.
I really
was not happy I woke up I wanted to keep
learning to fly or levitate. I did not go
back to having that dream or at least
I do not recall it when I went back to sleep;
but I still have the feeling inside of me
of what it felt like to levitate by my thoughts.

I have had other dreams of actual flying where I woke up feeling the feeling in my back and spine and how free it felt. it was like superman with no cape. am not sure why now I am learning to fly again, regardless though it is cool feeling to wake up and still feel it in your body.

Spirit for Today: Wally

2009-12-21T03:13:00Z

the last house I just moved from had a spirit named Wally.
At first I did not know this just knew most of the time
it was when people left So one day I was coming through the
living room thinking I was alone in the house and there
sat a man with no shirt on with broad shoulders bent over
just smiling at me. this made me jump because I thought a man
snuck in the house to get me but it was just a spirit.

So I told my roommate at the time Barbara about him. She just
had a friend passed and I wondered if it was him.
I asked her if he liked to sit around with no shirt on
she said that would be Wally her daughters fiance.
He had died a year or so ago. Her and Wally did not like
each other at all. She tried to keep Wally and her
daughter apart and even at death had his ashes
in her house instead of her daughters who had his son.

Before this I would never think a spirit would hang with
their ashes but he seemed to. So Lisa moved in with
Barbara and I and she is more sensitive to things like me.
He started picking on her too she did not see him but
he did things like shake her bed right before falling asleep
or slam doors and such. He even hit a pile of towels
I just folded off of my bed. Wally had to go.

It did not seem Wally did things to Barbara or she just did not
notice him, but he sure liked to Lisa and I. So LIsa and I had
had it one night doors were slamming and such and
Barbara was gone. I picked up Wally's urn and held it
prayed for him to go to he light and was quiet to see if
I got anything. I got he wanted his ashes to go by his son
and Becca, Barbaras daughter. He did not want to go the
the light at all until I told him he could help his son more
if he went to the light, that he was stuck now.

I then put his urn outside and told him to leave us alone
I would give his ashes to Becca. So the next day
Becca comes over to use her Moms computer and I mention
Wally's ashes. She had wondered where they were and I
told her what happened, so she took his urn with her.

After that night of putting the urn outside and her taking
them there was peace in the house. So Wally even at death did not want
to be in Barbara's house and knew I could see him and started
to irritate me until I would do something to help him.
I have had spirits do this my whole life not knowing why when I was
younger, but now I know they know I can perceive them
and perhaps help them so they come bug me.

Also if you do healing work you carry a healing light and can
become like a bug light attracting all kinds of things so
you have to be aware of the things that need your help or
is it something just straying along attracted by your light.
Regardless prayers of protection and being aware of
this really can help. Also shielding your light so it does not do
this sort of thing. When doing healing work I am very specific
in words as what can come through.

(wally/spring 2007)

Spirit for Today: Story of the 2 Marty's

2009-12-21T03:10:00Z

in May of 2001 I went to Hawaii
to get my Reiki Masters with a woman
named Marty. I did not have a good
experience as Marty kept jabbing me
in class for questions I would ask
or make fun of my knowledge.

A few people even came up to me
without me saying telling me they
notice she is downing me in class
she must be jealous of me for some
reason ignore it get my degree
and enjoy Hawaii.

well Marty really disappointed me
she was my teacher healer and friend
I thought.

So I come home upset tell my friend
Spider about it and she says come to
New York with us for a spiritual native
american weekend. will be camping and
good for your son and can learn
about the native way of life more.

Well after forking out a lot for Hawaii
and Reiki Masters class I was low on
cash. So we arranged for payment of
weekend for me to massage and do
energy work for the teachers and elders
to pay my son and I's way.

I am massaging a woman called
Grandmother Otter she is an elder
and teacher. Very nice loving woman.

AS am massaging her see spirit of a
woman to her left side. So felt
I could share this with her and did.
she smiled said yes that is Marty.
she just passed 2 weeks ago and was
an elder too. (another marty wow)

She shared with me about their friendship
and how she would miss her and then
we got quiet she relaxed I did massage.
But then I started seeing over and over
and over butterflies in my minds eye
yellow pink and light blue.

I say to Grandmother Otter what I am seeing now
hoping I would not bug her with it.
she said Marty loved butterflies.

A few days later Grandmother Otter
said she had a gift for me and handed me
these beautiful mother of pearl,
yellow, blue and pink butterfly earings
that were Marty's.

She said that I saw them and are meant for me.
This made me so happy. It was in the beginning
of me accepting this intuitive part of me.
I was so accepted there for who I was and
those earrings represented my gift and
being right and spirit showing me things
and not being crazy like many have said
about it.

It was something physical to remind me
of the beauty the spirit world can offer and
that intuition was right on. and that I
had bad experience with one Marty then
here comes another person named Marty
that teaches me more through spirit then
a very exspensive trip to Hawaii ever did.

XO

Visions of Dying

2009-12-21T03:02:00Z

Some of my favorite work I have done has been
working with ill people doing healing. I get a lot out of
seeing them smile before I leave and know I at least helped
to comfort them. I have worked with some at the time
of death or as they were dying. My favorite part is the
visions I see in this process. Most of the time if someone
is very ill I stay at their feet. I really was not taught this
but is something that feels right to me. Say if someone has
cancer you for sure do not want to go to site of cancer area.
It stirs things up to much and could make them feel more ill.

I have found the feet most times to be a safe zone
and I just send healing energy into the feet to the rest of the
body. Sometimes when someone is passing it takes days
even sometimes weeks. Because most times it is pretty quiet
while I am working with them and they are usually in that
pre-death coma state and not talking.   So I sit with them
give them healing energy to help them be at ease while
they are passing.

To back track a bit, I did not start out very well with the death
subject. For one, the few funerals I went to when I was
younger I saw their spirits standing by their bodies.
I was not to open to this trying to deny the things I saw
at this point still. Other reasons are basically I was just
a big baby. I still am, in a way but I can let people go
easier realizing that they do not leave you entirely.
Their spirits still do visit even after they have passed on.

I used to be able to handle a lot more as far as like
dead bodies I used to bury the dead animals
in our family as a kid because no one could do it sometimes.
After my Grandma Ida passed it seems my gifts became a lot stronger
and I could not look at dead bodies anymore even dead animals
without being bothered. I was overly sensitive I would say.

Time passed more people passed great friends, family and
clients that I grew close to. I had to one year deal with 4
deaths right in a row. I really looked at my life
closer then realizing many times I could be dead and yet
I am still here. At one point I was mad about it when a 19
year old man died of cancer so gifted had so much light
to offer and brightened everywhere he went and this other
man who was older and not very kind to others live
who did very little for anyone or anything. It was not up
to me I finally came to that conclusion even though
it did not make sense why the good ones are taken so much.

Then I met my friends who I was around for a lot of circles,
full moon ceremonies, healing and such. A baby cardinal just
learning to fly hit their window broke its neck. Still alive
and suffering, All 3 of us do energy healing work so we
automatically put our hands out and gave the bird all
the healing energy we could send him. He laid his head
to the side and went to sleep and did not suffer, we helped
him to go peacefully.

I was with another friend in St Augustine eating at outside
cafe and a pigeon hit a building same thing happened.
Still flopping and alive. I went over held my hands over
the bird and within minutes went very peacefully. Did not
have to suffer long.

My Grandpa became more ill and my parents kept him at
their house. They were not as much open to any type of
metaphysical things or even ghosts. I think over time
I have helped them to believe more. At least my Mom.
He was in his last week and he loved when I massaged him
and did Reiki for him. I would come over and he would grunt
at me and I knew he wanted me to massage him and do Reiki.
His last week he was not conscious so I rubbed his feet
then sent energy up his body. The whole week I had images
of his Mother standing with him and farm scenes, he was
raised on a farm. I was not really sure what I was seeing
but I remember seeing it all week until he passed.
One time right after I left he opened his eyes and squeezed
both my parents hands looked into their eyes
and went into that deep sleep again. They were so excited
and happy to have that one last eye contact with him.
My Mom even called me saying how amazed she was
and knew it was what I did with him.

I then had a client named Shirley Burt. She was born in
Cassadaga Florida. A healer had healed her of Scarlett
fever so she believed in healing and it is what I was called
for not to much massage. She was mad at God and life,
who could blame her her husband was a rotten no good for
nothing guy who was a minister and really hurt her bad.
Bad thing is then she got cancer as it ate her up so much.
I got her to see angels in meditations and to heal some of the
old hurts so that when she did pass she would have less to
deal with on the other side. She had me promise to be with
her until the end. She had one cousin who was a guy
and he really was not to comforting to her.

Shirley was very supportive of my gifts healing and psychic.
She wanted me to do well. She had lost a lot of friends
in a short time back then and was sad and did not see
life worth living much longer as she was in her 70's battling
cancer for over 8 years, she was tired and wanted to go
home by her family and friends.I saw her 1-2 times a week charged
her half price and looked forward to seeing her each time.
The day came when Shirley could not get off of her couch.
I came to do therapy and she could not even get off the couch
to go on my table and just wanted me to leave come another
day. I knew better I kept asking her if she could even walk,
and finally found that she could not. Her cousin and myself
were on the hospice list so I called in to them to see what should
be done, they came for her. Within a week she passed.

The first 3 days she was awake in a lot of pain as
the cancer spread to her bones in the low back,
I came 2 times a day and oddly enough the hospice
they chose to put her in was not even a mile from my house.
The last words she said to me as I gave her ice chips as she
was so thirsty was "you are a good nursey to me" Then
she went into the sleep before death, I never heard her speak
again.   I went until the end doing as I vowed to be with her
and give her Reiki to help her pass peacefully.

The last night of her life there was on PBS a lot of church
music so I left it on for her as I was just gonna turn off the tv
as I do whenever I do work for no distractions. She did the
music for her church and taught students music so it was
exactly what she would love was my thoughts. The program
ended I turned off the tv. For a few days I had been seeing her
Mom as I had seen her pictures so I knew what she looked like.
But then this night I had seen a whole group there with her
(spirits who have passed) up until this point I had only
seen one person come for someone but Shirley needed
a group to bring her where she needed to be. I bet some of
them were her friends who passed. I was on her left side near her foot
and leg and out of no where comes this little tiny white feather
floating through the air. My hands were still for a while so
I thought it was not me getting it out of blanket or something.
I really do always try to rationalize things first. I tried to catch it
and it disappeared just as fast as it was there.

What amazed me is this about the feather. Much of our talks
were about angels and I would do visualizations with Shirley about
their feathers and her spreading hers and such. To me this was
angels way of saying hey we are really here, you been telling
Shirley about us but we want you to know we were listening.

Not long after that my low back started to hurt so bad
I could not stand to be in my skin. I am empathic so I thought
I would just sit in chair by her and stop doing healing for a bit
until it went away. I knew it was not my pain. It would not go away, Wow
she was hurting so much. I went home to rest a bit it took a lot
out of me that pain. As soon as I left and went up the road some
my back was fine again. I asked the women in hospice
to please call me if she started to struggle at all because she wanted me
there to do healing for her and if she was I would come right back,
I just needed some rest. I never made it back before she passed
they never called but they said she was so peaceful that it was ok.

I felt bad as I wanted to be there until the end but that horrible
pain chased me away. I knew she did understand though from
where she was as she knew me well and my gifts. At the funeral
her friend was telling me the night before she passed at about 1 a.m
she woke up and saw Shirley standing there like she was saying goodbye.
That is about the time I left the hospital. She was in process of going
to spirit then. 8 hours more she would be there. I asked a woman
who had been in healing field a lot longer than myself about the pain
I felt and why I had to leave. Her response was that we go through
levels as we pass and at the end we pass through the pain level of
the world and perhaps I was feeling this process. Very interesting I thought.
it makes sense really. Since this happening I have seen Shirley with me
many times. Several times when I was very ill myself and pretty much
alone. I thought she was there to get me lol. I come to find she was just
there to help.

(Shirley Burt)

Now to backtrack a bit to the birds I saw the light present itself
and the spirits went into the light when I did healing for the birds.
I have never seen this happen before this. The light did not come
with Shirley because I was not there at the time of her passing.
The next man I will write about did have the light come. I will call
him Mr. S as his family is here in town and out of respect
that will be his name.

Mr. S was a Japanese man that was at home on hospice.
He had cancer and was in his final weeks. A client of mine
told his wife of the healing work I did and so I was called.
Just so you all are clear I do not work for hospice.
Usually there were people there and they were talking
so it side tracked me to not really seeing the visions I normally
do while healing. The last day was different, I was called to
come because he was having the fever again and just struggling.
Everyone was quiet and let me work. I was at his feet and saw
the most beautiful vision of a cherry blossom garden huge garden.
they were everywhere. It is so hard to put into words
the beauty of it. Then a woman was in a kimono and she
was Japenese. He was a little again. He smiled and ran to her.
she gave him a fruit that looked to be a mango. I am not sure
if they have mangos there but it seemed he loved whatever it was
as he so happily took it from her. I looked at his face and he was
visibly smiling now. His breathing became farther apart and I told
his wife that I felt he would go soon to come kiss him and hold his hand.
The light came then and him and the woman went into it.

He stopped breathing his head went to side a bit very peacefully. There
was no struggle at all. It was so peaceful that his wife did not believe
he had passed. I felt bad for her she really did not want to believe it.
I am sure that was her only thoughts for a while but when it came down to
it she really was not prepared. Who really is. We never want people to
die. To this date I have never seen such a beautiful vision as Mr. S.
I wonder what exactly that fruit was. I never shared the beautiful
vision with his wife or family because she was so upset and
never called me again. I wish I could have. I am sure I did not give
it the beauty that it all was with words. I am not sure I could paint it
as beautiful as it was.

It seems that when we pass that someone we know and love comes to get us
and in Shirleys case a whole group. The visions are something that the
person loves and most times it is from childhood. Also, because this is
a lot I am writing about I did not mention above that while my Grandpa
and Mr. S and Shirley were passing over a weeks time it seemed like I was
seeing visions of them at all ages and situations in there life almost like
a review. I am not sure if that just was not the healing helping to heal
things before they move on or they are truly reviewing their lives.

I know in dealing with ghosts earthbound spirits I do not try
to cross every one of them over. For me I have to be asked by spirit
or the light just presents itself and I help them to go. Several have
been asking me about this type of subject lately and I hardly talk about
it. I am not sure why I do not. I guess the same reason as ghosts it took
me a while to write about them as well, I really was not taught how
to cross anything over it just happened really. There is no school on it
that I know of and it is even less talked about then ghosts. I know doing
healing work that my visions have been accurate and help people to heal
just as much as the energy work itself does. The fact that someone
else is seeing their pain. This work cannot be verified though
by the living client but in my mind I just know that when we die we have beautiful
things waiting for us.

Spirit for Today (she played with a little girl)

2009-07-30T04:10:00Z

When I was younger about 13-14 I snuck out
at night. I just could not sleep. If I was
not hanging out with friends or in the
cemetary I was at the corner store which
stayed open late. This woman named Sharon
started working late nights there. She
was not tall maybe 5'1, bit heavy short
blonde hair and blue eyes and wore glasses.

I was a hell raiser I smoked, drank,
snuck out at night, rode side-ways on the
railroad tracks at night in a blue nova
it was fun yet so many other things could
have happened to me prowling around at night.
About the blue nova one day everyone wanted
to go and ride sideways on railroad track.
Which consisted of going down one side of
railroad track in middle away from road
then gunning the gas and everyone pushing
to side then riding on 2 wheels.
This day I just did not want to go and
a train came when they went. They had
barely pulled the last person out before
the train struck the blue nova. No one
was hurt if I had went someone would have
been left in the car the way they all told
it. We all were really lucky.

Sharon started working days all of a sudden
and inviting me to her house when I snuck out.
She never told my parents and just let me be
me. I had asked her well more told her she
was psychic and she replied yes. Wondered how
I knew. I said because my Grandma is psychic.
She said yes but you are too that is how you
knew. She was a very good teacher and would
try and help me understand anything and
everything.

I told her once I did not want to be psychic.
She asked why and I said because they called
my Grandma crazy and also it seemed to me
that people who are psychic have a hard life
most times and mine has not been so great so
far yet. She said think of it this way if
we did not experience so much we would have
judgment of others with our gift because
we see and feel things. Because we have
experienced so much it helps us to me more
caring and understanding. My reply is
I think that sucksssss lol. She was very
patient with me.

Now when I snuck out it sometimes
was midnight even 2 a.m. or so and it never
mattered she let me in her house. One night
I asked her how she knew she was psychic.
She told me this story I will never forget it.

When she was younger she played with a little
girl up the road. For a long while she played
with her I guess many months not sure she gave
a time period. One day when going she knocked
on the door. Apparently she had not met her parents
before because when she asked for the little
girl the parents shocked said she had been dead
for about 3 years now. She had been playing
with a spirit and had not known she was not real.

(to be continued....part 2 Sharon leaves)

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Living life as an Empath

2009-05-20T05:49:00Z

Living Life as an Empath click here to my other blog

For those who do not know what empathic

means it is feeling the world around you

inside of you what others feel, pain etc.

this is not limited to people as can also

feel animals and plants and even strong

feelings inside of a building.

Today I was giving massage to a client.

She was having nerve pain in her shoulder

and arm. Massaging her shoulder and arm

and even neck and collarbone rib area did

not help as she was getting the pain

again and again.

I did some energy work

as she was more receptive to that and it

helped her more and then started to feel

in my lower neck area and higher mid-back

area a burny stingy pain. I did not have this

pain before going in and sometimes lyme can

bring on pain like that but I decided to ask her

and feel with my fingers in the same area on her

and found the place right where I was hurting.

I gently pushed on it and then her hand was

not numb anymore. Guess I found it once again.

When I was younger I was not aware that I had

this. I would all of a sudden get sad, upset or

even happy and it was not my own feelings.

It would have been a lot more easier

if someone had understood this about me and

taught me how to live with this but life has

taught me the way finally. it kind of is a

constant struggle to not feel everyone

elses feeling all of the time and making sure

I am not doing it.

I say is this my feeling

did I feel this way before coming to

this place or around these people??

If the answer is no chances are I am too

open and being a psychic sponge.

If someone with this gift is not taught

good boundaries it can be really hard

to live that way. lets face it this world has

a lot of misery in it.

I have had to become very aware of how

I feel inside to live easy with this gift.

It can be a curse at times but all in all

I am no different than an animal in my

opinion. They are very feeling creatures.

We are too but have been conditioned

not to be so. However, somehow me

and many others have slipped through

the cracks still carry this gift.

Meditation helps with this as it helps

going within and learning your deeper self.

So does having healthy boundaries with

people. I have learned how to still

feel but not take in others pain or

other energies. Today however it

happened again. This is a long hard lesson

for me but share this so if others

are out there as well who are very

feeling people in a very unfeeling world

how to deal and be happy.

There is a machine that measured my aura

and the woman said mine went out

way too far I must be a very caring person

always trying to help others and I need

to learn how to not have my aura out so far

in public. wish I could have learned

this younger in life sure would made things

a lot simpler for me. If anyone is interested in

learning more how to live with this gift

feel free to email me and I can share some tips

that I have learned that really help.

I have some interesting things

that have happened as a result of this.

I will share one. A friend of mine bartended

at a bar I drove by one day. I called to say

hello even though I had to keep driving by her

and all of a sudden tasted a bloody mary and

told her that a bloody mary sounded

good to bad I could not stop.

She said wow I just finished pouring

a bloody mary as she picked up the

phone. (weird huh)

Another time I worked in a wine bar.

it was a small bar and kind

of was seated towards

the place where the bands played.

I went downstairs and came back up one night

and went in the middle of the bar

surrounded by the people who

had been there a while drinking wine and

beer..

All of a sudden I felt like I drank 3

bottles of wine by myself .

I could taste alcohol but was

no certain kind. It was so

overwhelming and I knew

what was happening that I

was picking up everyones drunk

vibes but was like I drank what

everyone drank by myself.

I went out of the middle and

instantly felt better.

Ok so perhaps I am crazy

but this happened to me and so many more things I

could keep typing and typing but will

perhaps save that for another blog.

XO Catherine

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Spirit for today

2009-04-22T05:51:00Z

I started writing about my true experiences
with spirits a few years ago and they are called
Spirit for today. Here is one about a house
I lived in on Fort King Street. although my
friend will not admit he ran out of the house
to this day lol but he did. This house is 2 houses
down from where the Seven Sisters Inn was
featured on Taps Ghost Hunters.

12/15/2007 3:23:49 P.M. Eastern Standard
Time
spirit for today

Spirit for today early Halloween story about a Halloween
experience
Category: Dreams and the Supernatural

I had taken my son
around for trick or treat one year and a friend of
mine stopped over to my
house. I lived in a victorian house
apartment behind an antique store. I
loved this place, and it
has lots of spirit activity as well. I lived right near
where they used to do public hangings off of a street
called Fort King.

Most of these houses have spirits and are all victorian houses.
I love these houses they are my favorites
and wish they still builthouses this
way. My bedroom was beautiful,
mahogany sided walls 12 foot
ceiling and a fireplace I could not
use. It is also the place that had the
most activity in it.

I saw many things in this house a
woman in my room looking out of the
window white dress victorian style high up the neck.
her hair pulled up dark hair. I go over to antique store as I
love them too and they had the photograph of the original owners of
the house hanging up. In this photograph was the picture of
the woman I had seen exact same dress. Even though
I have seen this my whole life it still can freak me out
when things turn out to be real.

The owners of the antique store were also the owners
of the house and their granddaughterwas housesitting with
her friend there. I went out one night to take out my dog.
The friend of the granddaughter told me she lived there
previously and saw the same woman I did riding a bike
outside sitting sideways kind of guess the old fashion way
for women to ride bikes am not sure. then the poles on the
porch were wide but not that wide to hide a body on a bike
in view. She said the woman never came out the other
side of the pole of the porch. she was glad I saw her
too so she did not feel crazy now.

People have come to me via friends who have lived in
that same house and moved because things got so bad.
One day while stretching on the floor my dog just had
to keep trying to get in my lap and would not let me stretch.
her name was Sara a black lab sweet girl. but she
would not listen just then a little white poof like cloud
came across the room and poor Sara let out a cry.
that really made me mad I did not want
whatever hurting my dog or my son. Another time my son
went to visit his dad and the whole time he was gone
a fire engine went off in his room a
toy. I would stomp the floorby it and did not go off
but as soon as I would leave the room it would go off.
My son came home and the thing died never
worked again. I also saw different color orbs in my bedroom
several different times.

Going back to halloween night in 2000 my friend
was sitting with me and I was trying to show him how to
use the computer and how he can chat to others. I went into
a chatroom for ghost stories for halloween and proceeded
to type out true ghost stories from seeing them my
whole life. As I did this and said the end from my bedroom
came applause; not just clapping from a few but applause
from like 20 people or more. It was eerie, my friend
Dave being the brave person he was left quick.

My son was asleep Dave left and here I was with
all them spirits who clapped in my bedroom and now
I was supposed to go to sleep that night. Well for a while
I would not tell ghost stories because I thought if
I talked about them it would just open up
spirit world but they just seem to visit me anyways.

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